Cúrre (
hownkai) wrote in
thisavrou_log2016-06-01 12:20 am
Entry tags:
- *intro log,
- agents of shield: daisy johnson,
- all about j: j,
- danger days killjoys: the girl,
- dragon age: dorian pavus,
- frozen: elsa,
- mass effect: clone shepard,
- mass effect: commander shepard,
- mass effect: nihlus kryik,
- mcu: james buchanan barnes,
- mcu: natasha romanoff,
- mcu: tony stark,
- mcu: wanda maximoff,
- metal gear: kazuhira miller,
- metal gear: liquid snake,
- metal gear: solid snake,
- mushishi: ginko,
- original character: adrien arbuckal,
- persona 4: yu narukami,
- red vs blue: agent texas,
- star wars: rey,
- the walking dead: carl grimes (crau),
- tron: rinzler (crau),
- uncharted: chloe frazer,
- uncharted: elena fisher,
- uncharted: nathan drake,
- undertale: frisk,
- undertale: mettaton,
- x-men movies: charles xavier,
- x-men movies: peter maximoff
( june intro log )
Who: Everyone
When: June 1st and on
Where: The Moira + Collectives ASH3 - BF3 - CLF5
What: The crew finds themselves visiting the vacation spot of the Collective.
Warnings: None for now. Please label your content!
When: June 1st and on
Where: The Moira + Collectives ASH3 - BF3 - CLF5
What: The crew finds themselves visiting the vacation spot of the Collective.
Warnings: None for now. Please label your content!
I N T R O L O G |
"Each of us needs to withdraw from the cares which will not withdraw from us."
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What did it look like?
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[ When he closes his eyes, he doesn't see the mask, but he can still hear it breathing. ]
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How did you find out about him? About Ben?
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Wait here. I'll show you.
[She stands, brushing sand off herself as she goes to pick up her bag and towel; after this conversation, she's not sure she's going to manage much more in the way of lazing about. When she returns, she fishes the holo recording out of an inside pocket, then unwraps it from a bit of plastic (to keep it from getting wet, naturally). Without further explanation, she hands it to Obi-Wan.]
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He watches, blue eyes searching each detail, and he almost imagines he can feel this boy's loneliness. It doesn't easily reconcile with the man who saw fit to choke him in a hallway over a melted piece of trash.
When it's finished, Kenobi holds it in his hand as if it could still possess that delicate child cradled in suspense by bits and bytes. ]
I see.
[ He frowns and shakes his head. ]
I'm beginning to think the legacy of the Jedi is not one of peace. We've... left so much destruction in our wake.
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Going further than that means seeing his loneliness without being able to do anything about it. It means drinking deeply of the fact that a little boy with a lopsided smile--a boy who loved her once--grew up into the terror that Obi-Wan met.
Every time he tells her to visit, she longs to find the man he became and wrap him up in her arms. What did I do to you?]
It shouldn't be. [She risks a glance at Obi-Wan, uncertain she wants to see what she'll find there.] The Jedi uphold peace in the galaxy--they serve the most noble cause anyone can.
[She must sound like a child. These are, after all, the sentiments of bedtime stories long since told. But when she sees Luke use the Force, she can still see just what good a Jedi can do.
She shakes her head, looking out at the water.]
I don't know why I'm telling you that. You are a Jedi. But this isn't a failure we can lay at your order's feet.
[It belongs, she's certain, at her own.]
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This is exactly the kind of failure we can lay at the feet of my order.
[ Suddenly the memory of his confrontation with Kylo Ren takes on a different cast of color. The invisible hand isn't only around his throat. ]
His pain is obvious, as is his loneliness. Anakin was the same, and now I see that in some people, there's no setting that aside.
[ And then, not without some impetuousness, he shares his real meaning. ]
Luke didn't see it. [ Uncle Luke. ] He must have learned that from someone.
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Maybe.
[She knows perfectly well that blame probably rests with all of them. Most situations don't have a single emperor orchestrating the downfall of a galaxy--even the emperor doesn't really have that. It's harder to accept an ambiguous answer for this, though. The more muddled and complicated things are, the less likely it is she can change the future.]
But it sounds like I didn't see it, either. I don't know how-- [She cuts herself off, lips pressing tight against each other.] When I watch that holo, I don't recognize the woman he's talking to. Not if she didn't see how unhappy he was.
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Nevertheless, Kenobi has no suitable answer to offer that might explain her (or Kylo's) pain away. ]
You can't blame yourself for something you haven't done.
[ His voice turns quiet. ]
Has he seen this? Does he know you have it?
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[But she suspects Obi-Wan won't accept that as reasoning. The fact that her son is so deeply troubled is reason enough for her to take on all the blame she can; it's a sort of magical thinking, that if she only carries this pain as heavily as Ben does, she'll be able to understand it.
Leia doesn't strictly approve of magical thinking, but every little bit helps when it comes to long odds. How many times has she worked just a little later, just another hour, as if that would make a real difference for another planet like Alderaan?
At the question, she shakes her head.]
He's violent. [The memory, barely faded, of his fingers bruising her arm comes back to her. All that over the name Ben--just a name.] I wouldn't risk it.
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Did he hurt you?
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I don't think he meant to. [He'd let her go as soon as he'd realized his own strength; it was a violent mistake, but a mistake nonetheless.] He's not...whatever it is he hates his father so viciously for, I don't think he feels the same way about me.
[The problem, of course, is that she's not sure just what he does feel for her.]
I'd be more worried he'd break the holo.
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If what you say is true, then I don't think you have to worry; he seems to be quite sentimental.
[ Perhaps not in the kindest ways, but sentimental nonetheless. The way he'd treated the helmet and his anger at his parents are proof enough of that. ]
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[It was calling him Ben that set him off in the first place. They could have remained slightly awkward strangers forever otherwise.]
I wouldn't trust him with anything from it.
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Kenobi looks up out over the water. ]
So he's family, too. [ As if that thought is slowly sinking in. Now he knows why he'd preferred retreat at the end of their conversation. He could have fought, but it hadn't felt like the right option. ] I've never had anyone named after me... not as far as I know, at least.
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When I was nineteen, I was captured by the Empire. [Her gaze slides over to the horizon, the waves so far out that they hardly seem to be moving at all.] You're the person I called for help--and if you hadn't answered my plea, I'd have died there. [Of course, he was a much older man then. When Leia looks back at his bright eyes, she sees someone different. But not that different.] You were my only hope. Maybe he will be, too.
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Somehow, from all of this, he feels humbled. It's a gift she gives him to admit to such things, and while his mind is sinking into what that means, his heart is soaring at the realization that he cares for then as he does now, fiercely enough to do all he can to save her. ]
That you've shared this with me is a great honor, Leia. I feel very fortunate. And sad as well. I have no children, so I can't only imagine what this must feel like.
[ He glances at her, appraising in a way. Does she feel that same devotion for Kylo as Anakin does for her? ]
Perhaps you're his only hope, too. Are you prepared for that possibility?
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It doesn't matter if I'm prepared. [There's resignation in her face, but a certain warmth in her voice--for the little boy that was, if not the nightmare that remains.] I have to help him.
[Things aren't that simple, but here, far from Ben's temper, it's possible to make them so--if only for a conversation.]