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( july event log )

Who: Everyone
When: July 2nd and on
Where: The Moira + Caducan ship
What: The crew prepare to fight the Caducans.
Warnings: Death, Body Horror. Please label your content!

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the glass menagerie
"I want the world to be fragile. There is no place to hide a dark heart."

After the missive from the people aboard the vessel carrying those from Caducus Secondary, the Moira is alive with preparations for defending the ship. No matter how big or small, each individual is entrusted with the responsibility of protecting themselves and their fellow crew members at all costs. With the Captains having divided them into teams to devise appropriate Plans of Action, they have decided to merge all the ideas into a singular strategy and have relayed it to the entirety of the crew via the MID. Everyone has been given a vital part to play, and although the Captains realize that some aboard are passive, now isn’t the time to be idle. Now is the time for action.

☄ Step 1: Negotiate & Infiltrate

With this part of the plan enacted, a small number of those who have volunteered to attempt negotiations have been heard by the Caducans and have been temporarily “invited” to board their vessel. However, due to this highly stressful situation, a portion of the offensive team have been asked to accompany them in order to disable as much of the opposing ship and its crew to force them to evacuate onto the Moira. Regardless of time and what reparations are offered, negotiations ultimately fail. The Caducans want the debt of their planet to be paid by the people of the Moira with their very lives. While boarded with the Caducans, they will attempt to incapacitate the negotiation party through violent means, and it will be the responsibility of this particular team to attempt disengage the Caducans’ ship to prevent it from attacking the Moira. However, despite all efforts to sabotage their systems, the ship itself shuts its primary units into Lockdown Mode.

All Moirans are forced to make a decision: stay and be shut inside an unfamiliar ship with the remaining Caducans who are still out for blood or make an attempt to flee to the emergency escape units on that ship with the other Caducans who have used them to head straight for the Moira.

☄ Step 2: Offense & Defense

Meanwhile, back on the Moira, the crew must work to secure the ship against the incoming assault by the Caducans after having left their ship via emergency escape units. This means that some of the defense team will have disabled the gunnery to make it look as if the Moira is defenseless and secure the rest of the area with those on the offense team. There is no place for mercy; the Caducans will board the ship through the Cargo Bay. They are not interested in granting it to the crew after all the losses they suffered at Caducus Primary. The only choice will be to fight for their lives (kill or be killed) or find a way to lure the Caducans into the Ingress room to send them to some unknown place where they will no longer be a threat. The Captains have given all members of the crew leave to use whatever means necessary to protect both themselves and the ship’s systems from the invaders. Failure is not an option.

☄ Step 3: ???? & Step 4: Profit

In the aftermath of the fight, the Moira is in a state of devastation. Bodies of the Caducans as well as some of the Moira’s own crew can be found in the hallways. Those who were stuck aboard the Caducan ship have either been rescued or rescue attempts are underway. This is the time to recover, to calculate what has been lost and come together as the crew the Captains have wanted since the Ingress had brought them aboard. Any and all Medbay personnel will be at the crew’s disposal, though the Captains will be focusing their attention on the Ingress room and what has become of it after having thrown so many people inside it.

The Ingress technology is broken. Various events on planets and on the ship have shown that fixing it is near impossible, and that it is entirely unpredictable in nature. The Moira’s Ingress had recently turned off, sending the ship into a slight freefall before it restored and righted itself. Hours after sending the remaining Caducan crew members through the Ingress, the swirling blue light goes still and emits a pulse that ripples out in waves as far out around the ship as a few miles. For one lingering breath, it’s impossible to move, a near blinding light surrounding every crew member. The rush of wind is the only sound that can be heard. Moments later, every Moiran, even those that were on the Caducan ship, are now in the same place. The Ingress has malfunctioned, causing time and space to overlap—the two ships have twisted together into something unseemly and new.

☄ Shattered & Swept Aside

Parts of the Moira have ceased to exist. Areas of the ship have become crystalline and transparent. There are rooms that were never there before. The Mess Hall is gone, replaced by a single empty room devoid of all furniture. The tree at the center of the garden is still there exactly as it was except it is now made of glass. The floors are a jarred mess of glass and steel, and there is broken glass littering the ship. The air filtration systems are going into overdrive to clear out the miniscule particles floating everywhere. So, sometimes, too deep a breath may end with inhaling shards of glass. The clothing you’re wearing might have turned to glass, doors are sealed shut, and it’s hard to discern where the Moira starts and the Caducan ship ends.

Everyone has only one job: be careful of the glass.

☄ We Break Fast, We Are Glass

The crystalline glass that is woven into the ship is now possibly a part of the crew. The transition from skin to glass might be painful or feel as if it’s always been that way. Hair has turned to glass, and arms, eyes, patches of skin or entire bodies are now transparent and reflect light. Joints may be stiff, or flex and move as good as they did before. If a crystalline hand is smashed against a wall it might break, or dent steel. For those who need medical attention, all staff have been summoned to the Medbay once more to help their fellow crew. Prosthetics and coverings will be made and offered to ensure that the glass doesn’t get broken or to prevent further breakage. Crew may assist each other in finding a way to remove the glass, or leave it as it is until a permanent solution can be found.

( ooc; When it comes to barracks, each player can decide if their room has ceased to exist for the event or not. Characters that have roommates need to decide together what they’d prefer. The amount of glass that a character has turned to is up to the player, as well as if it is painful or uncomfortable in any way. For questions, please go here. Please comment to activity check to receive new ranks (if applicable)! )

( Other helpful links: Original Negotiation Plan | Defense Plan | Offense Plan )

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Fine.

[If that's how Loki wants things, then fine. It's impossible to keep the hurt from twisting its way on to his face through the anger. It hurts more than it makes him angry anyway, and it's a loss he's not sure how to deal with, that he wasn't prepared for. Loki had promised to stick with him after all.]

It's not about erasing anything! You can't erase the past, Loki. But things can change, you can change. You have! Or else, I wouldn't be here right now.

[He shakes his head in frustration.]

You're supposed to be a new Loki. Maybe you'll hurt me, maybe you won't, but if you just accept it as an eventuality, it's definitely going to happen. You'll wind up just like you were, and you know that's not what you want.

[His expression twists again and he drops his arms to his side, shoulders slumping.]

I can be angry and hurt and still not want to see you suffer like this. I'm not like that.

[He can be an ass, but he hopes not that big of a one. Besides, you don't turn off caring about someone that fast, even if he kinda wishes otherwise.]

Besides, we're still crewmates at least, right?

Things can change, but that doesn't mean they change easily, and gods least of all. All I meant was that a year- a year is not very long, to us. Whatever it is I have- had with you, it's still new, to me.

[But Billy's tone has changed, and Loki can't help looking up, expression guilty for a moment. He doesn't like hearing Billy sound like that, not at all.]

I don't want it, no. I do everything I can to stop that future. But- I don't want to go back to it yet, Billy. If I stay here, as long as I can... perhaps I can change enough to stop it.

[He sighs, feeling small and unhappy.]

But I promised I'd see you home and safe. I can't expect you to stay with me if there's a way for you to go back where you should be. So perhaps "still crewmates"... would be better for both of us. And if we're only crewmates, you should save your magic for when you need it.

It's still new to me too. I haven't been with anyone besides Teddy really... and you're entirely different.

[His expression twists and rather than sit down again, he leans back against a wall. Doesn't sound like they're done talking yet after all.]

My magic isn't finite as far as I know. [It won't stop working if he helps Loki out. He lets out a sigh.]

I'm not in a hurry to try to leave here, Loki, and I don't want to be just crewmates. I just wanted to be with you-- that's why I came here. I had no intention of ending anything... but it feels like you do.

[He looks away at the mention of Teddy.]

Very different, yes. I'm more like you than him, in some ways, and often the worst ones.

[Stubbornness is a trait all three of them have in varying degrees. But self-destructiveness? That he shares with Billy. And they can both be rather self-centred, at times, Loki probably even more than Billy.]

We're not the easiest of people, sometimes.

[He looks back at Billy, taking his time.]

You'll leave, one day. Everyone does, and it's understandable why. And right now- I feel ridiculous, Billy, but it hurts as well, and- it's a reminder, that whatever I become, I'll still be the echo of the old Loki. Always Ikol, who my younger self bound to magpie shape and kept with him as an advisor, and thought harmless until it became obvious I wasn't.

[He's not sure he's ever really told Billy much about it. He knows what Loki is, of course... but not the details, Loki doesn't think.]

Perhaps this, like Themis' scars, is only what I deserve. And perhaps you don't.

No, I guess not.

[Billy knows he's not easy to get along with-- and Loki is downright frustrating at times. Still, he shifts a bit, slides down until he's seated again.]

Everyone will leave here one day, including you... then who knows what will happen to any of us. [No, he hasn't heard the full story, but he hadn't expected it to be an especially nice or pleasant one.]

I can't pretend to understand what it feels like to be a god, Loki, but I don't care what you are or were. You aren't just-- that anymore. You're more, and I know you are.

[He cautiously shifts closer to Loki, though he doesn't even attempt to reach for him again yet.]

You don't deserve this, or to be hurt. You've stayed with me for what... two years now? You've looked out for me, tried to help me. That doesn't sound at all like what the old Loki would have done, not unless there was something directly in it for him.

[And maybe Loki got a less guilty conscience for it, but it still wasn't something directly beneficial, in his opinion. Hesitantly, he reaches out to press his hand to Loki's shoulder, his touch tentative. He's not entirely sure Loki will welcome it or if he'll spit something else out about it after all.]

I'm not-- I have the deaths of two friends on my hands, Loki, regardless of what anyone says, and I made sure another would turn into exactly what he'd been trying to avoid, all because I was an idiot. If you deserve Themis' scars, then so do I. But I am sure you don't deserve the pain you're in right now.

I know at least one potential future. It isn't... the one I'd hope for.

[Another laughing lunatic? He'd rather stay here.

He can see Billy moving closer, but moving again is too much effort. He's not feeling like getting into the kind of protracted, drawn out battle it would take to stop it, either.]

If I'm more than I was, it wasn't by design. Not originally at least. But between my younger self, and the Junior League Avengers, and perhaps a few others- if I were the kind to show gratitude, I'd owe them a great deal of thanks, and probably no few apologies as well. But I might owe you most of all. That's why I started helping you, at least.

[He sighs, but he can't help relaxing into Billy's touch. It's all he really wants right now, if he's being honest.]

I'm quite sure I don't deserve you, either. Two deaths you didn't plan is very little, compared to all the ones I did and didn't regret. But you seem determined, and I'm all out of arguments.

[He uncurls slightly, moves his hand to lightly rest over Billy's.]

But if you're not going to go away, you may as well come over here instead.

Then, you try harder to change it. You're stubborn Loki, you said it yourself.

[And Billy wants to believe that he can keep being different, keep being himself.]

I think you've probably cleared that debt already, Loki. [Although he might not say no to an apology for earlier. He might owe one himself too.]

I'd go if you told me to... if you really don't want to be with me. I wouldn't like it, but I'd go. But it's my choice to be with you, whether you think you deserve me or not, you know? There's been a lot that I haven't felt like I deserved, even before the underworld, but you don't get to decide what people want or feel. [He gives a wry smile before he tentatively scoots closer to lean against Loki, both because of the glass and because he's still feeling a little hollowed out and wary after earlier. Still, if Loki wants him closer, he's not going to fight it.]

Like this?

You have far too much faith in me, sometimes. I'm still Loki, you know.

[But Billy is in close, now, and Loki sighs and leans against him, carefully, one arm wrapping around his shoulders.]

Very much like this. I don't want you to go. I've told you many times I'm selfish, and if you will keep insisting on staying, I'm going to keep thinking of you as mine. And if you are- I want you close.

[He sighs.]

I'm... sorry. I didn't want you to see me like this, and I suppose- I overreacted to seeing you. And the more you wouldn't leave, the more I tried to make you leave. Too much pride, I think.

That doesn't have to be a bad thing.

[Loki doesn't always have to equal evil or terrible, he doesn't think. He slides an arm around Loki's waist when his arm comes around him like that.]

I already told you I'm yours once, remember? [And if he wanted Loki to think differently, he could tell him himself.]

I'm sorry too. I said things I shouldn't have. [He tilts his head back to meet Loki's eyes.] Did you mean it when you said you don't want me to call you my boyfriend anymore?

Perhaps not. It just feels as if it does, particularly when people accuse my otherworld duplicate so openly of murder. Do we all burn, I wonder?

[Does every Loki fall? It's a question that's bothered him since the mayfly dimensions, almost all of those Lokis some awful version of him.

He shifts a little, trying to keep glass away from Billy's skin. It's sharp, still cuts his own skin if he's not careful, and he doesn't want it cutting Billy.]

Careful where you touch, Billy. I would rather not have to take you to medbay, and have people stare at me on the way.

[But he isn't pulling away from Billy, not now he's this close.]

You're mine, and I like it that way. I enjoy your company, and it's always your attention I want the most, out of all the attention I seek. But "boyfriend"... I'm not sure I'm very good at that.

That was ridiculous, especially when there are two people sharing a name and we're all supposed to at least be trying to work together here.

[And nothing will make him think any different about that.] But I don't know... I think you won't burn without a pretty big fight, at least. I'd be pretty angry if you did.

[He gives a slight smile to show he's only half-serious, looking up at Loki.] I'm being careful, don't worry.

[He just wants to be close, that's all, and he can finally relaxed with Loki's arm around him.]

I think you are usually... jerk moments not included. But what else could I call you?

There were two. Thankfully, he seems to have gone home before you could decide he's as redeemable as I am.

[Billy is his Demiurge, and he doesn't trust another Loki with him, thank you very much. He knows what he nearly did to him, after all.]

You're never careful, Billy. You're the picture next to reckless in the dictionary. You're impulsive, you're occasionally naive, you're easy to anger- and you wouldn't be Billy if you weren't.

[Billy is so much more alive when he's throwing himself headfirst into things, after all. And that's how Loki likes him.

He settles back a little, uncurling into Billy, enjoying the attention he probably shouldn't have.]

...If it makes you happy, Billy, call me whatever you want. I suppose it makes no real difference what label you put on it. It just isn't a title I ever expected to have.

Don't be jealous of yourself, Loki.

[He chides lightly, lips curling into a smile. Besides, he thinks he's learned not to go loaning or aging up any gods of mischief without thoroughly considering motives.

He's not sure even half of that is complimentary, but... Loki seems to like that about him. He can't complain that much.]

Just not fighting with you makes me happy, Loki. I mean, big fights anyway. [The little daily spats aren't going anywhere, he doesn't think, but they don't really mean anything in the long run.]

I'll be jealous of what's mine if I want to be.

[He tightens his arm around Billy, pulling him in a little closer. Billy should have known what he was signing up for when he told Loki he could be selfish. It's not like Loki's ever kept that side of his personality a secret.

It is much better, though, watching Billy open back up, start to smile again.]

Remember the fact we're occasionally a little similar, Billy? I don't enjoy fighting with you as much as I might seem to. It's just... easier for me to cause trouble than anything else, particularly when I'm not in a good mood.

Well, I guess I don't mind a little jealousy sometimes.

[Depending how it's shown anyway, and Loki holding him tighter and calling him his isn't a bad display.]

I'll remember, yeah. If you remember it too. [Billy isn't above doing similar stuff at times, or at the very least, losing his temper. But-- hopefully that's in the past for right now.]

Anyway, we're going to have to fix that glass or you're never getting into our bed again, you know.

Don't act like you're above a little jealousy yourself.

[He raises an eyebrow at Billy, although it's not a very serious eyebrow. In some ways, he likes knowing Billy wants him around that much, whether or not it's terribly healthy for either of them.

He sighs, and reaches over, fussing with Billy's hair, relaxing a little more when he refers to it as their bed, as if they're still going to share.]

I'll remember you're too stubborn to argue with when you've set your mind on something, at least.

[And apparently, right now, that's Loki. He isn't complaining, much.]

I'm not sure you can remove all of it so easily. Some of it is acting as skin. Raw flesh is likely to be less painful to you, but also very unpleasant in bed.

I never said I was. If I'm yours, then I get to call you mine too and I don't always like sharing.

[Whether it's healthy or not, does it matter? It keeps them both going, it seems, and Billy doesn't really want to give it up.

He smiles a little, tipping briefly into the fingers going through his hair.]

That would be beneficial, yeah. I don't change my mind very easily once it's made up, I mean...

[He turns his head, leaning up to press a kiss to his cheek fondly.]

I just want to help you. You're going to cut yourself to ribbons at this rate... if you don't want me to do anything, at least see if you can find someone, okay?

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