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- *intro log,
- agents of shield: daisy johnson,
- all about j: j,
- bioshock: jack wynand,
- breaking bad: jesse pinkman,
- danger days killjoys: the girl,
- death note: l (crau),
- frozen: elsa,
- guilty gear: venom,
- mass effect: clone shepard,
- mass effect: nihlus kryik,
- mass effect: thane krios,
- mcu: james buchanan barnes,
- mcu: tony stark,
- mcu: wanda maximoff,
- metal gear: kazuhira miller,
- metal gear: liquid snake,
- metal gear: solid snake,
- metal gear: venom snake,
- mushishi: ginko,
- original character: adrien arbuckal,
- original character: alan varren,
- original character: andyr prince,
- overwatch: angela "mercy" ziegler,
- overwatch: fareeha "pharah" amari,
- overwatch: jesse mccree,
- overwatch: lúcio,
- overwatch: reinhardt wilhelm,
- overwatch: soldier 76,
- red vs blue: agent maine,
- red vs blue: agent texas,
- star trek aos: james t. kirk,
- star wars: luke skywalker,
- star wars: rey,
- the walking dead: carol peletier,
- the walking dead: daryl dixon (crau),
- transformers idw: ultra magnus,
- transformers mtmte: riptide,
- transformers mtmte: tailgate,
- tron: alan bradley,
- tron: yori (crau),
- uncharted: chloe frazer,
- uncharted: elena fisher,
- uncharted: nathan drake (crau),
- undertale: asriel dreemurr,
- undertale: mettaton,
- x-men movies: jean grey,
- x-men movies: peter maximoff
( august intro log )
Who: Everyone
When: August 1st and on
Where: The Moira
What: New “guests” join the crew on their journey and implement some changes.
Warnings: None for now. Please label your content!
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When: August 1st and on
Where: The Moira
What: New “guests” join the crew on their journey and implement some changes.
Warnings: None for now. Please label your content!
I N T R O L O G |
"We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once."
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Seeing her in the midst of a task doesn't take him by surprise; nor does he make the mistake of buying it for a second. She wouldn't dare seem so casual if she wasn't on guard, but there's nothing new about that. Leaning against the wall as the door shuts, he crosses his arms.
"Too bad 'm dead broke."
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"How's yours?" His room, she means. Down the hall with his own pack of strangers, away from each other and all the comforts they're used to, that she came to rely on to keep her from screeching off the rails. She's not as worried about Daryl as about herself slipping and reverting back to things she wants nothing to do with, and nothing about this is sitting comfortably.
Quite frankly, knowing he's all right will do a lot toward calming her nerves, and of course he knows that, so she'll have to try and decide how honest his answer is once she hears it. At least he's probably not sleeping in the corridor like he told her about that first night in the Temple.
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"Ain't so bad," he reasons, crossing to stand before her, too restless yet to think of sitting. "Real live aliens an' everything."
No, he's not sleeping in the hallway. He's not really sleeping well, either, but it could be a lot worse. All that time in Teleios-- he hates to think of it as going soft, but he's gotten a little better at coping with strangers. Straight out of home he'd probably have locked himself in a closet somewhere already.
"You holdin' up all right?"
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When he asks the question she knew was coming, she almost says it: Sure I am. The words are right there, along with a smile as fake as it is convincing. Being in this new, strange place has all her old instincts fighting their way to the surface. So far she's been mostly successful at holding them back by remembering all the reasons she shoved them aside in the first place, with a few slips here and there. Looking at Daryl makes it easier, since she can still feel the heavy thud of that falling tree and it's strong enough to overcome the paralyzing what ifs that took her over.
Instead, she looks down, at her folded hands which are resting in her lap. "About as you'd expect." He knows her, especially after watching her those years in Teleios as she battled back her impulse to block everyone out and finally found a place she could call home, but even before that he'd have known she wasn't fine. That she takes the loss too hard, that she can't stand the newness of everything and everyone, that if she were allowed she'd have made a stack of baked goods a mile high. But, after those years in Teleios, she at least admits the truth instead of skillfully dodging the question. Logically, she knows there's no use regretting making their choice to leave, and if there was a chance of getting back home to support their people then she's glad they took it, no matter what private hell she'd be reverting back to. Knowing how things ended up, though...
Everything here reminding her of Beverly really isn't helping, either. It wasn't just a goodbye, it was Carol volunteering to toss aside all the memories they made, all the effort it took to become so close not once, but twice. She had always wished she could say a proper goodbye to someone just once, but it was horrible. There's just no good way to lose what they lost, she knows that, doesn't need reminders or consolation; what she needs, she has learned, is time, and unfortunately it's not much of a comfort just yet.
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But that doesn't mean it comes easy, and when she pauses, he gets what it means. It's some comfort that she doesn't lie for his benefit. After all this time, maybe that's fair. They ought to be honest with themselves, with each other. Leaning against the upper bunk, he fixes her with a long look, then nods.
"We'll be all right."
For a moment the old, aggressive optimism that used to come so much easier shines through. He believes it. Knows having faith-- that they'll adjust, same as always, they ain't ashes yet-- is the only way it's going to be true.
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But being okay and being happy aren't even a little the same, so there's also that. There's no pretending this place is anything like the farmhouse or the penthouse she dreamed into existence, the first places she ever felt safe in her whole life. Somehow she thinks of when Daryl returned to Teleios after that short absence -- short, from her perspective, but over a year (she's guessing, eight months at the prison plus whatever came after) for him. How he didn't want to settle in, at first, didn't even want to stay in the house to sleep. She never got to see how he reacted to losing the prison, but she doesn't imagine it'd be too different. And that's how she's feeling now: out of place, like she wants to crawl out of her skin... but, she's used to that feeling, or she was once, so she just handles it. What she probably needs is to go cry for a while, but there never seems to be time, at least not in her head which is crammed full of checklists and escape routes and contingency plans.
She's not trying to push Daryl away, she can only hope after all they've come through that he realizes it. It's just difficult to knock herself out of survival mode and into being an actual, feeling human being right now.
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If they take too long to wallow, he thinks, it's gonna ruin them. They've lost a lot, but they're good at rebuilding.
After another moment he stands straight and ducks down to sit beside her on the bunk. They can lean on each other a minute, right? Not safe to do much more, but there's no reason not to.
"'M supposed to fix shit," he says conversationally. Work here is not nearly as appealing as it was in Teleios, which had the advantage of being much like work at home. "'Cept most of it, I dunno what it is."
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"You didn't bring your hammer?" she asks, playful. That was the thing the Agents gave him when he asked for help fixing shit, right? The visual of him banging at sensitive computing machines randomly with a hammer does wonders for her mood, so long as she imagines said machines to be non-life-support oriented.
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"Too bad," he muses.