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- *intro log,
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- death note: l (crau),
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- star trek aos: james t. kirk,
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- undertale: mettaton,
- x-men movies: jean grey,
- x-men movies: peter maximoff
( august intro log )
Who: Everyone
When: August 1st and on
Where: The Moira
What: New “guests” join the crew on their journey and implement some changes.
Warnings: None for now. Please label your content!
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When: August 1st and on
Where: The Moira
What: New “guests” join the crew on their journey and implement some changes.
Warnings: None for now. Please label your content!
I N T R O L O G |
"We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once."
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He was here.
[ Which isn't so much a question as it is a repetition made in mild disbelief, one that Venom shelves because it's so obvious. Yeah, dingus, Kaz just said that he was.
He can appreciate that the situation must have been complicated, especially if Kaz is using the past tense: "was". There's no change in expression on Venom's part once he brings himself back to neutral, save for the slight downturn of his brows that speaks to his subtle, self-contained empathy. Whatever Kaz feels about Big Boss is Kaz's private business; Venom lost his rights to pry with the cassette he was given.
Regardless, that last statement of faith prompts Venom to tip his head a millimeter in acknowledgment. ]
You're stuck with me, more like. [ Not entirely self-deprecating. It's dry, but light. ]
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[As if she wants to interrupt the meaningful moment, the rust colored husky behind Kaz (the larger of two) steps around him and stares at Snake with gold-blonde eyes. And then makes a warble noise and tosses her head, a sound that couldn't even loosely be construed as a bark.]
[It's good he has the dog for moments like this, when he's torn out of an overwhelming weight and looks down at the furry nerd who just banged her head on his leg in her eagerness to get attention.]
That's Mama. She had a litter of puppies when I got her and I didn't know what else to call her. The silver one- [the 4 month old that seems like less of a laughable doof than her mother] -is one of her girls. Her name is Joy.
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—Looks like you've been keeping yourself busy.
[ In a good way, because there's more to life than revenge and trying to murder your old friends for their slights. Venom's lips almost twitch up in a facsimile of a smile, one knee bending to offer his human hand to the enthusiastic husky that eagerly sniffs at his fingers.
For a guy that frequently uses his hands to kill, he's alarmingly gentle as he sifts his knuckles through his new companion's fur. ] Commanding dogs instead of soldiers?
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[Snake. Snake. He will absolutely manufacture work for himself when he doesn't have enough to do.]
Didn't have a business to run. Mama's not much of a worker, though. Didn't intend her to be. Joy is. Figure... well, might as well give Ocelot a little something extra to do. She was Big Boss's... before he uh... [He doesn't want to say "died", so he doesn't. Not ready to talk about that yet. He needs to address the important stuff first. In this case, though he scowls down at the idea, Kaz is less important as a person. He needs to focus on giving Snake ship relevant information. Not dump more weight on him immediately.]
[Joy is considerably calmer than her mother, level-tempered like her namesake. Where the twins managed to pick the most combative of the puppies, John had picked this small earnest one.] He was from a different timeline I think. A few years ahead of us.
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He veers between professional distance and personal affectations, considers the pros and cons of the choices he can make with respect to how best to handle this delicate situation. ]
Kaz. [ Softly, as he straightens up and gives Mama one last rub behind her ear. ] Whatever happened between you and him, you're not obligated to explain.
[ Because he is Big Boss, but he also isn't. Venom's existence in itself is akin to an invasion of Kaz's privacy, and Venom is starting to come to terms with that fact as well. ]
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[He tells him not because he's obligated, but this Snake is still his friend. Despite everything, he is still his friend. And Kaz takes the opportunity to step close, until they were shoulder against shoulder.]
It's good to have you. I missed you. It might be a little selfish of me to be glad you're here, but I am.
[And when did Kazuhira Miller ever not be selfish in some small way. There's a good heart in there, somewhere. But often he does want what he wants. In this case? He just really wants his friend. That's not so bad.]
[Mama glues herself to the back of Kaz's leg, standing directly behind him as if taking some obnoxious proximity cue.]
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It's alarming how easily he falls back into rhythm, even with the staggering notion of Big Boss's potential 'death' still ringing in his ears.
He mouths another Kaz, momentarily unsure of which direction to proceed— does he press the issue of his original's passing, or the fact that his XO is glad to see him? It's a hell of a dichotomy to tackle. ]
...We're gonna have to take this one at a time.
[ Finally, he settles on that. Pulls away so he can settle his palm on his fellow soldier-in-arms' shoulder, ground him with that point of contact. ] Sorry to keep you waiting.
[ Not exactly 'kept you waiting, huh?', but. You know how it is. ]
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[The most John can offer is understanding that something hurts. He gave Kaz that. It wasn't an apology, but it wasn't unwanted.]
Good to be with you, Boss.
[Those words are typical of Kaz.]
[He puts his arm around Snake's midsection and hugs him to his side, a gentle squeeze, a hug with his real arm before he lets it drop. But he stays in that personal space bubble for now.] Alright, what first? [One thing at a time, right?]
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First things first. He settles down on one of the chairs, immediately raising a brow when Mama takes that as an opportunity to explore his lap with excited nudges of head-to-knee. ]
Setting some facts straight. [ He breaks eye contact with Kaz to sift his fingers back through thick fur again, indulging the insistent whines for attention. ] I was here before. Anything I should know about with respect to that?
[ Another way to phrase this question is 'how many people know who I am', but he's sure Kaz can put two and two together. Especially considering that he was here when Big Boss was also around, presumably— hard to miss two identical-looking people walking around. ]
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He talked about himself a lot.
[Yes, some people know.]
[He decides in his infinite wisdom to not mention the Ocelot thing. Probably for the better. It wasn't with this man, after all.]
He didn't do that much. There was a prison station that made him hallucinate. And... he tried to help me, still. Started having nightmares.
He actually showed up before he knew who he was. At the same time as Big Boss, so I confronted Big Boss and made him go talk to him. [As much as one can "make" Big Boss do anything.] DD showed up a few weeks later and that's what happened.
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How many times is this going to happen? How much of himself will be left after each hard-reset?
His hand stops and rests on Mama's head, temporarily suspended mid-motion. Scarred lips knit together, expression emptying before working into something more convincingly present. ]
Right. [ If he sounds a bit more clipped, well. ] Can't help what the others already know. I'll be discreet with the rest.
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[He can tell something about that hit him. The way it's clipped, the way his mouth knits, his hand pauses on the dog's head. Something about that bothered him.]
And you can say so. People can't judge you for what he's mentioned. I'll get your back.
[But he told some people himself, in his rage, in his anger, in his loss. Just a few people though. Discrete ones, some that he trusted that wouldn't wield it like daggers. But this loss happened to Venom, not him, and he has to do his best that it doesn't haunt the man more than necessary.]
Big Boss went by Ishmael and you went by Ahab. It's easy enough to choose a different name of preference.
But... There's another complication relating to that. [And he says that like he wants Snake to prepare for something else "big".]
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Self-pity is unbecoming, and Venom doesn't draw on it. That's never been a priority to him, but being yanked from one trajectory to another is admittedly difficult: from 'from here on out, you are Big Boss' to 'choose a name you prefer'.
He sets that thought aside, carefully pats the dog looking inquisitively up at him to assuage her curiosity. ]
Go on.
[ Perhaps a bit frustratingly, he provides no input regarding what he's going to do about himself. But this "complication" seems more important. ]
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There are two other Snakes here. Liquid and Solid. You know one, but as "Eli". They're the adult versions of the twins, from our future. Solid is actually one of my students. Almost the spitting image of John.
[He's not even used the name "John" for Big Boss in front of Ocelot. The way it was given to him, it felt like some kind of secret. But he's made a point to hide as little as possible (except for that excitable venture into restaurant chains) from this man. So he lets himself.]
That face is pretty common around these parts. You can be Venom Snake if you want. Or just another Snake. That's fine. [He reaches out and settles his hand over his forearm, letting it rest there. A fake hand, though glove covered, on another artificial arm.]
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He would laugh if any part of him remembered how to do that. Instead, he turns his head to the man currently trying to comfort him with a hand to his forearm, ghost on metal. ]
This is bound to get confusing for the others.
[ AGAIN, he's not going to talk about himself, because that's still a pile of question marks that he has to sort through on his own time. Big Boss, the twins, another 'him'.
Pragmatism helps. Moving forward, that helps.
He relaxes his tight-lipped expression in increments, finally manages to properly look at Kaz with something resembling gratitude. ]
Am I gonna have to limit my interactions with the Snakes?
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So when people react to their being different Snakes, it's more like you're in the same family of specialists.
[Most people seemed to understand it that way.]
I have a friend, Jim Barnes. An alternate version of himself is here. There have been several multiples. No one should react.
[When the world gets complicated, people start accepting it as generally weird and move on.]
What else can I help you with. [Give him things to do, something to explain so he feels helpful.]
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It's looking like his main issue remains the all-pervasive one. It's really the only question he needed to ask, really. ]
Any progress on getting back to our world?
[ Back to base, back to their false Outer Heaven. Back to the mission. ]
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We stopped at a world with an Ingress. But it was also broken. I managed to go back to Costa Rica for a while. [This was one of his more terrible decisions.] I took some reminders with me when I left. If you want to see some of them.
[A ton of terrible decisions, where he got into his own jeep for some of his possessions. And when someone asked him who he was? He claimed to be his own older brother before leaving. That particular Miller probably had a hell of a disappointment that he didn't catch up to him, maybe even got the idea that he still had family out there somewhere.]
[Nice work, Miller.]
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Venom's expression turns a touch wry, imperceptible if not for the way his eyepatch moves just slightly at the movement of eye and lips. ]
Fine.
[ Not accusatory, not sarcastic. Just a neutral affirmation, maybe a silent warning that he won't have much meaningful input to give. ]
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[He wonders if Snake is aware of how much unintentional obfuscation he uses.]
Come on.
[He reaches down and actually picks up Joy, hefting her up so that her big husky paws are on his shoulder and carries her out of the room. Mama follows at a trot, wagging her tail.]
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Getting up out of his chair, he follows Kaz through the dim halls of the Moira. Strangely enough, the dark doesn't bother him; it reminds him of the poor lighting in some areas of Mother Base, those black-steel walls and pipes winding, labyrinthine. ]
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[There's an umbrella propped up against the dresser. On a hanging rack, a bespoke suit, his Diamond Dogs uniform, some other dressy clothes of varying era (a little futuristic).]
[He rifles through one of the dresser drawers and pulls out some photographs, most of them like the ones brought back from salvaged, roaming MSF soldiers. But there are plenty of others. And then from beside the dresser, he picks up one of two guitars. An acoustic one. After handing off those pictures he holds it up.]
This actually came in the mail. Sometimes the objects that show up are random. This is my old guitar.
[He can't trust V to remember. But maybe he knows how much that means to Kaz.]
I can still play. Turned out my muscle memory held on. You have any songs you like? I could try one.
...I won't sing.
[He promises. He's not much in the mood for singing anymore, anyway. But playing he can do.]
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He takes the liberty of pulling up a chair for himself, because they're both past the juncture of having to be polite and asking for permission. If there's still some degree of awkwardness, it's mostly because Venom is still adjusting to the idea that Kaz has absolved him of... whatever he needed to be absolved of. His XO may have had several months' worth in space to come to terms with some of their faulty cogs, but Venom is still working through them, seeing where the teeth don't align.
Regardless, he takes those photos from a gloved hand and sifts through them. Soldiers lounging on baked sand, a blurry shot of homemade gallo pinto, a black blob that was most likely intended to be a still shot of an antsy cat.
He sees the memories in double vision, rendered from two different angles. It doesn't detract from the quiet wave of fondness that he still nurses, somewhere in the pit of his stomach; the ashes of an angel of peace, swimming in the bottom of his subconscious.
He doesn't look up from the sepia-burnt snapshots between his fingers, but he does manage to make a request. ]
—'Wild Horses'.
[ The Stones, a song pre-coma. He's sure Kaz will appreciate that more than a song he's come to know after he's come to. ]
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[Some older part of him remembers people requesting that at loud birthday parties, when he'd sing in accompaniment and couldn't remember half the lyrics because he was drunk. Luckily there were always people singing louder that drowned out the sound.]
[At least he'd never let it fade completely in the nine year expanse between the MSF and the "success" of the Diamond Dogs. He'd not play at parties, but play quietly for himself. When his arm was gone, that's when the last shred of music in him was silenced.
He tells himself that but dopey birthday parties tell differently.][He plays it well. He's been practicing here. Trying to cling to that old part of him, even if he's slowly giving up on everything else. Mourning that sunny, beaming man he used to be as dead, accepting something else took his place. Venom missed a hell of a midlife crisis (good for him).]
Things are a little different, now. This captain changeover is actually a little bit worrisome. [He talks shop as he strums his fingers across the strings.]
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The notion is enough to lift Venom's gaze from those photographs, for that single eye to follow the trajectory of translucent fingers over a vaguely familiar, slightly-battered instrument.
For a vague, unhelpful moment, he wonders if 'Medic' would have had something to say about Kaz's playing. ]
Regime changes usually are. [ Please do not point out the irony in this statement, Kaz Miller. It seems awkward to talk shop during this attempt at nostalgia, but thus is life; always moving forward. ] Fill me in.
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