thisavrou_log | december event log

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december event log

Who: Everyone
When: December 1st and on
Where: The Midway Hub.
What: With the Moira destroyed, the crew travel to the center of the Hub.
Warnings: Potential violence. Lots and lots and lots of walking. Please label your content

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the outer gate
"Open up, and let them in."

The Moira is no more.

With the damage done to the ship due to the timeslip, all that remains is a burning wreckage and parts to be taken—if the crew can find anything in the pieces. Recovery and headcounts are the main objective for the first several hours of being planetside, and once things have settled just enough, Captain Ira calls for a meeting and addresses those who are able in person to explain the situation. He draws a rough map of the area and explains where he believes they are - according to the terrain - and where they must go. For anyone who’s listening, he describes things like an “Outer Gate”, an “Inner Gate” and “gate sectors”. Believing this to be the best course of action, all crew are asked to explore and gather what they think they’ll need to make the long journey towards the central point of the Hub. Because the MIDs are no longer working due to the lack of a network, the Captains distribute a newer tech called the TAB. It serves the same functions as the MID but is lighter, slimmer, and has the ability to stick to any surface.

WELCOME TO THE MIDWAY HUB

Now that the smoke from the crash has cleared, and injured crew have been tended to, the Captains get everyone ready for departure by explaining what they know of the Hub. Almost stone-like, the creators built a domed workspace in the largest solid space on the planet they could find. Gates are the only way inside, and anyone who catches a glimpse of the compound will see that parts of the dome are cracked. Yet, everything still appears to be relatively intact. The Midway Hub’s terrain is very rocky and difficult to walk on at times. Below the surface is a honeycomb of intermittently dense and brittle stone that makes travel difficult due to the unpredictable nature of what lies beneath the crew’s feet. Those who can develop the tech from what’s left of the debris might be able to create something to determine which route is the safest. Ships and small crafts can be used to fly, but landing is a problem—rocks jut up in sharp peaks and the clearer spots can't handle their weight. Vegetation is sparse, consisting of twisted dark gray thistles that have sprung up from cracks in the rock and burn when in direct contact with skin, and what could be considered small animals here can be seen scurrying away the closer crew get to them.

☄ WEEK ONE

Crew are asked to hook cryo beds together and to use any appropriate vehicles that can be made or fashioned to fit the terrain to carry injured crew on the journey to the center of the Hub. Supplies are gathered, and the Captains, as well as any crew who want to, give the Moira a proper sendoff, heads bowed as they say goodbye to what’s been their home. Traveling starts out slowly, a line of a hundred-plus crew members making their way slowly forward. Stops are frequent, but camping for rest only occurs at night. Crew are assigned watch shifts, fires are built, injured tended to, and those who are able are asked to explore nearby caves and hunt for food.

Something akin to deer, though striped and only to be found in pairs, can be stumbled across at night. Throngs of dark purple mammels begin to follow the Moirans on their trip as well. They are friendly, curious, and eat the thistle. Meet the intelligent, watchful predators that aren’t easily scared away and follow the crew from a distance as if waiting to pounce. The thistle can be eaten, but only if cooked first, and those who sample the chewy plant raw will experience a burning sensation in their throat that doesn’t go away until the cooked version is consumed. During the first week, water can’t be found.

Anyone who does hunt, gather, or explore should make sure to that their TABS are on and it’s suggested that nobody goes alone.

Nearing the end of the first week, an Ingress can be spotted close by that crew can explore. If anyone dares to go inside, they will find the texture of the ground and surrounding walls to be rather soft. If inspected closely, crew will discover that what they originally thought to be rock is actually a living organism that’s fed off the energy of the Ingress it’s attached itself to. It’s not harmful and squishy to the touch. If pressed hard enough, it secretes a turquoise liquid with the consistency of water that might make a good substitute for that very thing.

☄ WEEK TWO

When crew finally pass through the sector gates, a strange sensation encompasses them, and a depowering of sorts goes into effect. The creators put in security measures meant to put all visitors on equal footing as well as to protect themselves from harm. All crew will essentially have the strength and abilities of the average human. An unforeseen issue, this causes Captain Thán to slip into a coma as he is no longer able to continue to recover at a steady pace, and with the loss of the former Captain’s abilities, crew can no longer be brought back if they die. For the first time, all Moirans are subject to permanent death.

During this week of travel, broken ingress machines and parts will be found scattered among the rocks, and new crew will come through. Unfortunately, these Ingresses aren’t in good shape, and anyone coming through will be in varying states of distress—some physical and some mental. New individuals will either have suffered an age slip, growing older or younger than their original body, some form of body transformation (perhaps that shiny thing they were wearing is now part of them somehow), or an extreme weakness they had never been subjected to before arriving on the Midway Hub. The new people will be offered to join their group, once found, and seasoned crew will be asked to explain to them where they are going and what they know.

The rest of the week will be a mix of greeting the new arrivals and continuing to travel to the center of the Hub. The closer they get, the less frequently they’ll see animals, and more caves will begin to pop up.

☄ WEEK THREE

Entering the third week of travel, settlements and houses begin to crop up and are prime areas for exploration and general supplies. Those who go inside may find items that have been left behind and evidence showing that those of varying species and cultures lived in the homes. Some appeared to have been scientists while others were explorers, but all living quarters are deserted. Crew who are less lucky in their search might come away with no fresh supplies, and others might walk into traps or safeguards left behind by previous tenants; these come in many forms, from mild paralysis to temporary unconsciousness. As there are more residences, there are also more caves. The entrances vary in size, and light sources will be needed to explore. Once inside, crew can find purple underwater streams, which can be consumed, and glowing surfaces. When crew drink the water, it temporarily restores powers, a few minutes tops, and then, extreme lethargy settles in for a couple of hours.

Further into the cave systems, crew will come across these lovely creatures that are attracted to sound and track through scent. They are highly dangerous and attack simply to feed. Killing them, though, is surprisingly simple as they are just as vulnerable and weak as everyone else. They are vicious in demeanor but only as strong as an average human.

The closer to the Inner Gate crew get, the less homes, wildlife, and more caves there will be.

☄ WEEK FOUR

The Captains, aware that the crew is exhausted, stop and make camp for the first few days. Someone mentions that it’s the holidays where they’re from, and the Captains do their best to throw a party. Set up at the base of a cave, tents are built and fires roar. Soft music is played in the form of guitar, thank you Ira, and Cúrre brings out some legumes that taste like cherries when roasted. There isn’t much in the way of decorations, but crew are encouraged to dig through their pac-discs and contribute to the festivities.

After a brief respite, crew learn that the entrances to Gate A and Gate B are inside one of the caves but any signs or markings have long since worn away or been destroyed. Groups are split, TABS are synced, and crew explore carefully until an entrance is found. Crew discover Gate A first, and all crew are contacted to gather there. The Captains will remain at the cave entrance until all crew are accounted for, and then, they’ll enter through the gate together.

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Oh... okay. Well, a little while is better than no while.

[Asriel sounds somewhat disappointed, but they're together right now. He rests his head on Mettaton's chest, feeling lighter than he has in... ever, he thinks.]

'm sorry I attacked you. You were trying to help me and I was acting like Fl... [Asriel stops himself.] ... a real jerk.

There's no need for that, Asriel. I, ah. I'm the one who was acting like a jerk. Just because I was doing it for a reason doesn't make it any better.

[That's it. Don't agonize. Don't overdo it. Stop there.]

It isn't right that I have not been talking to you either. I shouldn't have been so distant.

[Stop, Mettaton.]

I'm the biggest jerk.

[Goddamn it.]

No, you're not!

[Asriel missed Mettaton, for sure. But whatever reasons Mettaton had, Asriel wasn't going to hold it against him. They all were torn up by recent events - Frisk was avoiding him, Mettaton was distant, and Asriel...

Almost decided that none of them were worth holding onto and made himself disappear. But that was wrong.]

And if you were a jerk, then I was a super jerk. I - I can't believe... I can't believe I almost said goodbye to you, mom, and Frisk. Y-you're all so important to me, you mean more to me than anything on this stupid ship or any planet we've ever been to.

Asriel...

[Mettaton uses what energy he has to tug the small boss monster close to him in a firm hug. He couldn't say anything without screwing it up but he could still do this. He could still offer a hug.]

I'm just happy I didn't have to say goodbye. I don't want to say goodbye to any more friends, but...I know it is difficult. I promise you, I do understand how hopeless things can feel. To the point where you try to wrestle back control from your own circumstances, make it all run on your terms again even if it means making bad decisions.

[And this time, he bites his tongue because he does want someone to listen to him, but it shouldn't be Asriel right now.]

I will always forgive you.

[Asriel buries his face in Mettaton's chest as he pulls him close. There's a rumble in his throat - soft and meant to be comforting for both of them. He twists his head until he's looking up at Mettaton with his ear lazily flopped over pink metal.

Maybe deep down, Asriel was worried about the reasons why Mettaton spent weeks away fro him. He rationalized it as him being busy, but knowing that he's seen his timeline and everything he did or was...

Hearing that he was forgiven lifts another weight off of him, even if Mettaton didn't know it was there. Tears threaten to form, but he blinks them back.]

I don't wanna say goodbye either - not ever. I... ever since I arrived on this ship, I always thought I was gonna have to stay behind, you know? And in the beginning, I was okay with that. Because even if everyone else went home, I could stay behind and still be me.

[He won't be isolated forever in the Underground. He'd have a second chance to say goodbye to his family. It was more than what he felt he deserved, but it was an ending that was better than what was waiting for him.]

But I... I really don't want that anymore. I don't like it here. I just wanna go home and see the surface and go to your shows and see dad again-

The closer we got, the more scared I got. Because I didn't want to stay. But I didn't want to go home and turn back into a flower, and lose everything I had here too. I'm so tired of it - of being scared, of different timelines, and I'm just tired of all of it.

[Asriel closes his eyes, looking away.]

I'll never be able to be the old Asriel again. Not after everything that's happened, but... I want to start over again. With all of you.

[On the surface. With his SOUL.]

You will. You'll be able to come home with us and do everything you've always wanted to do with your family. You can be a proper child, go to school--haha, did you know your mother is a teacher? So you'd see her while you're at school, and your father? He tends the hedges occasionally, so you'll see him too.

[Mettaton tries to summon up every happy thought, even though the longer he speaks, the more it hurts because he knows, truthfully, that he won't ever feel the same, and that it'll be hard to reconcile his feelings for Papyrus, and reconcile the discomforting notion that he won't be able to share the same relationship with Asriel and Frisk that he had here. Toriel had no reason to think highly of him, after all.

Still. Even as his voice wavers, he continues:]

I'll give you free tickets to my shows, like I said, and you can spend time with Undyne too. Anything you want, whichever monster you ever wanted to talk to you can! And the humans have started to come around to us, accept that we want to coexist and we mean no harm.

It'll be okay...and we'll be friends, so you'll never need to say goodbye to your family. Or to me...

[His grip on Asriel tightens as he speaks, but not uncomfortably. He'd replicate the sound Asriel made if he could...but it's not something he can do. He's just a ghost in a machine. All he can do is smile and say pretty words.]

That... that sounds nice. I'd really like that.

[It still doesn't sound real - and lately, Asriel's been a little afraid of seeing this world where monsters could be free and happy being reset back to nothing. He hates feeling like that. Deep down, he knows Frisk will do the right thing.

But why was Frisk afraid too...?

They've had this conversation before. There was an odd sense of fakeness to it - like they were just trying to convince themselves that this was what was waiting for them at the end of their journey. That all their pain would vanish the moment they go home. Of course, it never works like that.]

Mettaton... you know you're still gonna be part of our family no matter what happens, right? You're pretty much stuck with us now.

... I know going home isn't going to make everything that happened here suddenly go away. I think you understand how I feel about this place better than anything else. So... if things aren't okay, you've always got me to talk to. Okay?

[Mettaton doesn't respond immediately. He just closes his eye and seems to contemplate that. He's not smiling anymore, because it's hard to do so when, inside, you're telling yourself "don't raise your hopes and for the love of God don't tell him anything."

He couldn't. He couldn't impose it on Asriel, that was the whole point of these three weeks. It would all have been for naught if he talks about himself and his insecurities.]

...I know. And I appreciate that you would listen to me, really I do.

And...I am happy to be stuck with you, as you say. You have a very lovely family and I'm privileged to be considered a member of it. You've all given me something that I did not deserve but which I cherish.

[Admittedly Asriel doesn't know about Mettaton's current personal dilemma, only that he hasn't been doing well ever since that incident with the timeslip. Still, the offer is there.]

I'm glad you're a part of it.

[He does deserve it - Mettaton doesn't deserve to be alone. He's got family back home, if Asriel remembers right but...

Right now, it's just the Dreemurrs.]

Do you need help getting up? Or... do you want to?

[Asriel doesn't really want to get up, but he probably shouldn't just lay on top of Mettaton all day.]

[Mettaton's grip loosens and his arms slide lazily to his sides when Asriel asks him about getting up.]

Mm, sweetheart, I don't think you could lift me if you tried. That being said...I'm a bit spent when it comes to energy--oh, not my battery of course, that's fine. I just sort of...overdid it with my magic.

[He gives a soft, unamused laugh.]

So if you don't mind, I think I need to sit here a moment, until I can move more reliably. That's the hazard of being a robot made to run on electrical magic and the will of my own SOUL.

[A pause.]

Would you like to talk about what you've been doing for the past few weeks? I admit that I find myself curious.

[Ah... Asriel tries not to look as guilty as he feels.]

Mm, all right. I'll stay here with you.

[And he'll settle back down next to Mettaton, thinking about where he's been and what he's done these past few weeks. It's honestly all felt like a blur. All he can remember is spending most if it in a deep, twisting sense of dread, misery and fear. He's been hungry, he's been thirsty, he's walked far enough without resting that the paw pads on the bottom of his feet are a little scratched up. But he's mostly spent all of it in a daze, moving forward mindlessly while wishing he could've successfully disappeared.]

... I found some caves.

[Yeah, let's just start with that.]

I tried to go in one, but... I couldn't bring myself to do it.

[Mettaton can't exactly stop Asriel from feeling guilty this time...which in turn makes him feel guilty for inciting those feelings. However, he doesn't bring it up. It's much easier to focus on what the young boss monster had been up to lately.]

It's probably for the best that you didn't. There's a chance of something dangerous being in there. Even the bravest person shouldn't go alone.

[What if Asriel had ended up lost? Or hurt?? Ugh, Mettaton didn't even want to think about such a thing.]

Y-yeah, I bet there is... like cave demons that will eat you if you take on step inside.

[It's kind of morbid, but really he doesn't think he's wrong. It was tempting though. The cave offered some kind of similarity to the Underground, and for a boy who didn't think he should exist, it would've been the perfect place to let himself disappear. It was the fate he'd have once they all went home anyway, right? So why wait.

A shudder passes through him. He doesn't have to think about that anymore.]

Um... what about you? What did you do the past few weeks?

[Mettaton takes notice of the shudder and ruffles Asriel's hair idly as he thinks abou how he'll answer the return question. He doesn't really have to lie...right?]

I've been doing my best to help get food for everyone. The first week was a bit of a problem, of course, until I found a way to charge off of the cryo tubes without causing any harm to whoever was inside them.

[His fingers pause momentarily.]

...I've missed you. Very much. It was all lonely work, and all this travel is not my idea of a good time.

[The least he could have allowed himself was a travel companion, but...it was complicated.]

[Sometimes Asriel forgot that Mettaton needed a place to recharge - in a literal sense. This planet must have been hard on him, with it's sheer lack of resources. He wonders if the Velocity Raptor could have helped in some way, but he doesn't know enough about robots to guess.

Asriel resumes laying his head on Mettaton, and he's free to continue to the hair ruffling.]

I would've helped you...

[It wasn't that simple. He knows it's not. And with how he's behaved the past few weeks, he wouldn't have been the kind of travel companion that Mettaton needed. It wasn't like Asriel couldn't have reached out either, but instead he tried to isolate himself in his despair too.]

I missed you too. All this traveling and finding food and stuff felt a lot longer without you here.

[Oh, Mettaton wished he could move. He really did. But his legs feel leaden, too thinly linked to his innate magic and the tether of his SOUL to be of any use right now.

It means he can't run anymore. It means...the inevitability is that he will have to come clean with Asriel, because they're friends. And friends tell each other these things.]

Sweetie, I know. Oh, I know you would have helped me if you could, but look at what happened when I wasn't there. You had such a hard time, and with the way I've been, I could not have helped you through it any easier.

...I would have made it much worse, Asriel. My mind is in a very dangerous, very unsafe place right now.

[A concerned frown tugs at Asriel's mouth as he wonders about what Mettaton means by "dangerous" and "unsafe". He's seen him make some pretty scary faces when that spider was attacking them both, he's seen Mettaton break down while they were playing a card game together. Surely, a few weeks wasn't enough to recover from that.

Asriel's mind was also in a dangerous and unsafe place, and he hopes that's not what Mettaton means.]

Is there anything I can do now?

[Listen to me, his mind says before he can quash the thought. But regardless, he could never follow through on it. He didn't want to, at least.

It's probably for the better that he's not completely suicidal. But skating the edge of such thoughts isn't much better. Mettaton's suffered very dire blows to his psyche, and it seems as if the timeslip had just brought it all together, amplified it, and made it impossible for him to deal with alone.

The robot shifts uncomfortably, wanting to run away from this again.]

I can't ask it of you. I can't ask you for your ear in this anymore. I should know better than anyone else at this point, right? You've experienced enough, and your problems should not be overridden by mine again.

I won't allow it.

You've helped me with my problems, Mettaton. I want to do the same for you.

[He's not sure how he can stress enough how much Mettaton has saved him with their FIGHT, but there's no way Asriel is okay with Mettaton helping him with his problems only to watch him suffer in return.]

... I can handle a lot. You've seen it, right? What I've been through. It's only been because of you that I can finally feel less... weighed down.

I've never been that great at problem solving- [ha ha] -but there's no way I'd let you do all that for me and not listen in return.

I know that I helped you, and I couldn't be prouder of my contribution. I'm glad it meant something to you. I just...Asriel, how can I force this on you?

[Mettaton looks away, his jaw clenched so tightly that it almost hurt. Almost. He doesn't speak for a long time, and when he finally does, it's quiet. Like this is a deep dark secret he never wanted to share.

...It sort of is.]

The reason I stayed away is to spare you.

I didn't want anyone to ever have to see how cold and cruel I could be. Asriel, what I did before, asking if you were on my side, obliterating that spider far beyond its death...it was for more reasons than I can count, all of them interlinked together.

I think that my SOUL has grown cold to hurting others. Violence has never been hard, but I cannot regret as I used to. I can't find the reason to regret what I do.

[His arms, having long since found their way to his sides--he couldn't remember when his fingers had left that fringe of fur on Asriel's head--now stiffened. Fingers dug small tracks into the ground as he spoke the words he'd been holding for weeks.]

If I don't regret...then I know what will happen. I've seen what kind of an awful being I can be. Controlling the masses, stamping out opposition and letting the death toll rise.

[There's a flash in his mind's eye of the royal garb resting upon his metal shoulders--god, no...no, not him.]

I'm afraid. Of that, being that person.

And I'm afraid of everything in between. Seeing how many times one can die, how distinct every single death is...h-haha...Asriel, I'm so frightened and there's part of me that wants to control it so that it won't happen, but if I try to shape the events, then it's already happening.

I can't get out. I'm scared. I'm scared. Me...

[And there's so much shame in that admission that Mettaton can hardly bear it. He might not regret murder, but he does regret his own weakness.]

Who am I anymore? I'm not Mettaton.

[Asriel is completely silent as Mettaton speaks, and at some point he looks away. Everything he says hurts. He's been hurt so much by Determination - seen the cruel reality that he and Frisk lived in. Asriel may not know what Mettaton means by "controlling the masses", but he's seen so many different timelines and outcomes from his own resetting that he can make a guess at what kind of cruelty that Mettaton fears.

Asriel can't make any promises that this outcome can't - or won't exist. But a long while after Mettaton speaks, Asriel slowly reaches for his hand and picks it up in his own. He stares out at the long stretch of land ahead of them, a path that will eventually lead them home.]

I can't tell you not to be afraid.

[Even with his soul, Asriel doesn't know what the future has in store for them. Determination was a power that did amazing things, but it could be just as awful and cruel too. It was a power that shouldn't exist.]

But you're talking to someone who knows all about being afraid of the kind of person you could turn out to be. That person who can be really cruel, who wants to "control" the future and make it theirs.

But that outcome you saw, that's not the only one that exists.

[What Mettaton must be talking about is LOVE. And surely the both of them have gained some LOVE while aboard this ship.]

... I know that doesn't exactly make that one outcome any less scary, huh? But I think you do care, a lot more than you think you do. That's why you didn't want to tell me, right?

It's not going to feel okay, everything that's already happened to you. Seeing all those timelines and outcomes... it's enough to drive any human or monster insane. And with everything we've already suffered, and the fact that you can bring yourself to care...

Mettaton, despite everything, it's still you.

[Despite everything, it's still you.

Mettaton really wants to believe that Asriel's right. He wants to believe that nothing's changed, and that he's still the same guy who could pull off an entire show and make it look good, including anyone who he invited to the show.

He wanted to agree that he was the best thing since Glamburgers.

But he isn't.

Still...he truly appreciates Asriel's efforts, and there were some points that the young boss monster got right; like the fact that he had been trying to keep everything inside because he did care more than he let on. If he didn't, why bother trying to pretend he isn't broken?

Mettaton finally looks at Asriel, and although he's smiling a little, he looks fit to burst into tears.]

Maybe I will be able to believe that eventually. And even if I don't right now, it is such a lovely feeling, knowing that someone still believes in me when I can't. I am so terribly sorry that I said this, not because I didn't want to talk about it with you...but because it must serve as an awful reminder...

... I'm not worried about that anymore.

[His crimes and the awful things he's done will always be there. That can never be erased. And while part of Asriel still fears resetting, he has to have more faith in Frisk than to just believe everything they've worked for will disappear.]

I don't think I'll turn back. At least not anymore. And if someone like me can get another chance after everything that's happened, I don't have any doubts that you'll be okay too. Even if you don't think so right now.

Thank you for trusting me enough to tell me this. It means a lot to me.

Thank you for listening. Next time, maybe I ought to just tell you, hm?

[He shakes his head, laughing dryly, but he is starting to feel just a little bit better. Being around Asriel always has a way of making him feel better, even if there's equal parts of unwarranted despair because of...well, everything else.

That Asriel had it in him to sympathize with Mettaton despite having the short end of the stick in life is honestly a little flattering. Mettaton knew he himself was nothing but a spoiled brat wrapped in his own problems...so Asriel was kind for dealing with him and his insecurities.]

If it's alright with you, I think I'd like to travel with you--or if you wanted to travel with me, that is fine. I can help you if you run into another trap. No one needs to be alone.

[He doesn't have to be alone anymore either.]

[Asriel nods, giving a small smile.]

You don't have to hide anything from me. And in return... I won't hide anything from you, either.

[Though at Mettaton's offer, he perks back up. He doesn't really need to say anything more - Asriel's missed being with him, and being able to stay makes him a lot happier than spending the next few weeks alone.]

R-really?! I - I mean, yeah! I'd like that too!

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