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Entry tags:
- *event,
- all about j: j,
- danger days killjoys: the girl,
- mass effect: nihlus kryik,
- mcu: james buchanan barnes,
- mcu: wanda maximoff,
- metal gear: kazuhira miller,
- original character: adrien arbuckal,
- star wars: rey,
- tron: rinzler (crau),
- uncharted: chloe frazer,
- uncharted: nathan drake,
- undertale: mettaton,
- x-men movies: peter maximoff
( july event log )
Who: Everyone
When: July 18th and on
Where: Slave trade outpost in the Runoff.
What: The Ingress malfunctions, sending the Moira into a different universe. Some of the crew end up on one of the Runoff’s many slave trading outposts.
Warnings: Sex, murder, kidnapping.
( ooc; Please mark all sensitive topics in subject line! )
When: July 18th and on
Where: Slave trade outpost in the Runoff.
What: The Ingress malfunctions, sending the Moira into a different universe. Some of the crew end up on one of the Runoff’s many slave trading outposts.
Warnings: Sex, murder, kidnapping.
E V E N T |
"It comes first and follows after. Ends life, kills laughter."
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Why did he need those directives? It was all a ruse, and humans rarely fell into the Underground anyway. So what was the point of it all, especially when he'd ultimately been unable to thwart the one human he fought against?
...Honestly, the answer was simple.]
I was programmed that way because the only thing a monster has to fear is a human being and their determination. But human killing directives translate easily to killing others, as you can see.
[Or maybe Zam hadn't seen yet that Mettaton was good at what he did in a way that was indeed disquieting.]
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Not that Zam’s one to judge.]
Would this be easier for you if we were only killing humans? [It’s nigh impossible to communicate tone through text, but Zam doesn’t mean it as condemnation -- it’s a genuine question.]
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Would it be easier? Is it easy to murder? Am I good at murder? If I am, does it really matter who I am murdering?
Despite being robotic, the emotions he experiences cause Mettaton to feel just as uncomfortable as he looks. Sometimes it's not about actually having internal organs when you feel nauseous. It's...a feeling borne of emotional turmoil in his case. He feels it as he thinks over all of this.]
No. Well, I'm not certain...maybe it would be? I don't believe so.
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I’ve met assassin droids before. Killed a lot of them too. I always assumed they enjoyed doing what they were built to do.
[The ones sentient enough to feel enjoyment, anyway. The ones who weren’t at least didn’t feel regret.]
But you don’t enjoy this? Not at all?
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I'm not just a "droid" as you put it. And besides which, I didn't assume that you would find me so simplistic after we've spoken at length.
[It's like Luke all over again. Just assume he follows his programming, right? To be fair, he hardly explained why he wasn't just any old robot because maybe he was afraid of admitting what he really was. Just a bit...]
I can feel regret. And just because I can kill people doesn't mean I enjoy it.
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Sorry. You see droids everyday in my galaxy. You get used to them having some things in common. Sometimes I forget other places don’t play by the same rules. [Maybe she should’ve known better. Mettaton certainly doesn’t talk like most droids, but Zam had chalked that up to a particularly unique personality matrix. But if he says there’s something more behind it, Zam’s inclined to believe him.]
So whoever made you gave you the ability to kill humans. But not the desire to. [Seems pretty cruel way if you ask Zam. Unless his creator had had no control over his personality at all.]
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You could say that. It's complicated, and it's not her fault. She did her best to suit both our needs, and at the time...that is what the king would have wanted. An inorganic machine to do the killing that he didn't have the malice to carry out effectively.
[Alphys made his body this way because she wanted to impress people. And hey. He wanted to impress people too.
But not like this.]
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He could’ve just hired someone. [Funny, that someone like Zam would be less likely to regret the task then someone literally built for the job.]
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He had the Royal Guard for that. But...monsters aren't inherently violent. Not to that extent. Maybe Undyne...but. I was alright with it. With the idea of hurting humans.
[His tone and backpedaling makes it clear that at this point, he's fishing for justification.
But then he says something that...really, in his mind, is irredeemable at this point. He hides it, he pushes it away and says "that's not me anymore" to himself. But it's ugly, even as he says it.]
Did you know I almost killed someone on the ship once? Frisk. I almost killed them.
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proving what everyone says about their kind.Still, it’s what Mettaton says next that really gets Zam’s attention. She stares for several seconds, looking genuinely shocked. When she finally reaches for the keyboard again, there’s only one word in the projected message.]
Why?
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[A pause as he thinks that response over, and he's quickly shaking his head.]
Mm, no. That's not true. I wanted their soul so I could get out and follow my own dreams. I only needed one soul to do that, as opposed to the seven needed to break the barrier. Just one would do.
[He's not comfortable admitting it, especially knowing damn well that, at the time, he could have just passed the soul onto Asgore and allowed him to break the barrier. Then everyone would be free.
After finishing speaking, he buries his face into his own knees, curling up tighter. He wanted to disappear.
Why was Mettaton doing this to himself?
...Because he deserved it. He deserved to feel like a bad person, especially after how many he had murdered under the command of his slaver.]
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But… Mettaton hadn’t killed them, had he?
Eventually, Zam reaches for their MID again and types out another message.]
What stopped you?
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Frisk. Frisk stopped me. They are a very determined little human, you know. They only fought to disable, and it worked! And then I conceded.
[He started to regret for his fellow monsters and what he meant to them. What they meant to him.
But that was another subject.]
I regretted it later. We're friends now, because Frisk is so determined to find the good in people, and they reminded me that somewhere in this shell, there's a decent person.
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Still, that they had only fought to disable and befriended their would-be killer afterward?]
Sounds like them.
[She's still not looking at him, but there is some small amount of guilty relief in hearing he regrets it now. She didn't want to hate him. Her words are nonetheless harsh.]
If you could bring yourself to try and kill then, you can do it now.
[It's encouragement. Of a sort.]
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I know that. It's what I'm doing anyway, right? We're just taking it in turns.
[He's had his turn. So has Zam.]
If I did not have to though...I would prefer not to do this, I think. I've done enough damage.