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thisavrou_log2016-12-02 06:54 pm
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december event log
Who: Everyone
When: December 1st and on
Where: The Midway Hub.
What: With the Moira destroyed, the crew travel to the center of the Hub.
Warnings: Potential violence. Lots and lots and lots of walking. Please label your content
When: December 1st and on
Where: The Midway Hub.
What: With the Moira destroyed, the crew travel to the center of the Hub.
Warnings: Potential violence. Lots and lots and lots of walking. Please label your content
E V E N T L O G |
"Open up, and let them in."
|
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[Apparently not, though, if the next statement is anything to go by. He shifts in place, looking down.]
I dunno if... people're ignoring things. I mean -- when all that bad was happening with us bots... we knew about it. All the time. But, dude. We were doing like literally everything to try and feel better.
[He means himself, in this instance. Himself, Bee, and Riptide. Mostly him and Bee. But he doesn't want to specify for now. Too personal.]
Maybe it's like that.
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But that doesn't make you wrong.
[He sighs again, and shifts his gaze to his fingers idly playing with the ground beneath them.]
I've just always been told to avoid distraction. It's not good for me, I indulge too much, that isn't how the Jedi operate...on and on. [Never mind that he never wants anything tangible. Just to be able to feel and think on his own.] You may be right, but...I'm supposed to be better than this. Things like this aren't supposed to happen.
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[He sort of deflates a little, at that answer. He probably should have expected it. But expecting it and hearing it are almost two different things. He pulls his knees in closer to his chest.]
But... what else are you supposed to do? Just sit here and think about how bad everything is? That's not good, right?
[Isn't that what everyone's been telling him? To act like everything's normal. Like that's what everyone needs? It's... how do you make sense of this?]
I -- I dunno dude. I was hijacking transports and doing street-racing long as I can remember. This kinda thing isn't -- I dunno what to do with this.
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I...I don't know either.
[There is no center to be found here, no calm, no reassurance that's always been there. The rest is simply silence.
And he's never known what to do with that.]
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It's gotta get better, right?
[Because life can't be that unfair. Can it? It has to get better.]
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Do you want an honest answer?
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[Because he's sure he already knows what the answer is going to be.]
... You're gonna say it's not gonna get better. Aren't you?
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[However true it may very well be. Never getting better means he stays like this in perpetuity. That he and Obi-Wan and Ahsoka never get this fixed, and live apart in horrifying singularity until they stop breathing. That his lightsaber never makes the right kind of sense again.
Stang. Would he have to stop flying, too?
Worse, it means he's just made it that much worse for those just as fragile as he is, and that's definitely not right.]
I'm just not sure how high my hopes can get. That doesn't mean there isn't a surprise waiting, somewhere. Hell, this whole galaxy is nothing but surprise after surprise, right?
[How did that become strangely uplifting?]
If I could fix this, I would. You could even have all of me to do it.
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[His plating shivers. It's a struggle to throttle it all down.]
I... I guess so. Yeah.
[It should be uplifting. It really should be. But he can't fix any of this any more then Anakin can. And it's becoming a painful pattern lately.]
I know, man. It's just... I wish I could fix it too, y'know?
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[Coming from Anakin Skywalker, that's absurdly high praise, especially when his first response is often to fall apart, even if it's where no one can see it.]
Look, we'll figure something out. [Even if he doesn't like the idea of having to cope with this. Even if it doesn't mean fixing it.] ...We just have to figure out what "something" is.
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I'm. Not sure I'm doing that whole... 'not falling apart' thing.
[He waves his hands a bit awkwardly, and settles for putting one down around Anakin. Lightly.]
Okay. Okay, good. That's good.