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[savmods]

Who: Everyone
When: July 1 and onward. See this post for info.
Where: Kauto + Chioni + Ingress Complex
Warnings: Potential violence. Please label warn-worthy content in your subject headers.

There's a burst of light in the sky when the Ingress breaks, a final flare followed by a shuddering that only those in the facility can feel. A flurry of panicked activity in the complex follows, ushering new arrivals to where they need to go in a hurry, with little time to give them the needed information, much less answer questions. The lights remain on, but dimmer now, life functions still operating but little else. On Kauto and Chioni below, the sky fades into an early twilight, followed by night, and day does not come again.

nerds save the world

Before the end of the day, all TABs receive an emergency broadcast notification outlining the situation. The speaker, a lead Savriite Ingress technician, does not invite panic but nor does he mince words. The Ingress is broken; their best efforts have failed to restore it. The time has come to turn to anyone who can help: scientists, engineers, those who have worked with advanced technology on any world. Formal qualifications don't matter when it could be the end of everything.

"Help us. Before it is too late."

Those who come will have the run of the complex and full access to the Ingress, as well as whatever tools are available and as much coffee as they can drink. People are encouraged to work in groups and share ideas, and a small number of young and nervous technical assistants will be on hand.

the land below

As Thisavrou is denied light and warmth, the weather becomes brisk and descends into bitter cold. Chioni is evacuated due to the effects on the already-harsh weather cycles there, although a skeleton crew of scientists remain behind. On Kauto, the arboreal Region Three and pastoral Region Two suffer the most from the temperatures and the snow that eventually begins to fall. Many crops are frozen over, and refugee citizens are driven from their homes to the Regions One and Five, where stored energy will keep dwellings warm. Save for those who choose to leave the underwater facilities, Region Four remains largely unchanged, but there are unverified accounts of strange aquatic animal behavior near the surface.

Overcrowding, limited supplies and a pervasive fear presents the opportunity for both heroism and foul deeds. Many come together to share resources, supplies and fellowship in what could be the end of worlds, while others take what they can from the unwilling or exploit the desperate. Sentient evacuees are followed by fauna from Region Three and unsettled lands beyond, in search of warmth or food or merely confused by the change in habitat. Some are unthreatening herbivores, while tanglesnakes and clownbees are more troublesome. Others are poisonous hunters, while still others are small, but dangerous when faced as a pack.

Just when all seems lost, light returns to the sky. The Ingress begins to function once more.

the coming days

As the temperatures rise, many demand answers, but most turn to the rebuilding of their lives first. Damage has been done that isn't so easily fixed, and even in the least-affected areas, remnants of the crisis show in the lack of fresh food, in the increased signs of criminal activity. Those who can help others through their own efforts of by organizing assistance are needed, but those with impure intentions are more likely to go unnoticed.

Eavesdropping on the streets may reveal a desire for vengeance. "Those intruders from last week. They're responsible for this, aren't they? What's being done?" But don't listen too closely, or a suspicious eye may be turned on you. "Aren't you one of the refugees from the Midway Hub? You should return to where you came from! All the trouble began when your people showed up!"

Life goes on. But life does not go on unchanged.

[quick ooc note: the Region 4 search & retrieval mission/RNG fight will be posted in a separate log.]

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[redshitlord]

[It's been way, way too long. He's pretty sure he's never going to see his buddy ever again -- just one more face he's going to have to see only in memory banks. Something's wrong with Shepard. He's worried about Rey. It's even been a while since he's spoken to Riptide.]

[So it's... definitely sulk time. Because what else is he supposed to do? No one has seen Lavellan.]

[After many aborted attempts to hijack him while he was in his alt-mode, he's been taking to idling with the heat on, while his holoform sits on his hood. Just in case. But then, some motion catches his attention.]

[There's somebody in the alley. His holo lifts its head -- that redheaded, lanky young human perched on the car's hood, blinking too-bright eyes rapidly.]

... Lavaland? Buddy?

[lavelly]

[Sideswipe had been one of the ones he'd thought about the most, in the time he'd been given for meditation. Lavellan had broken his promise, and while in the face of everything else that was a fairly minor offense, it was yet another way he'd hurt someone from his own selfishness. It was amazing how much he'd ruined in the span of a single moment, but that was just the kind of person he'd been, wasn't it? The kind of person he still is, but at least now he has a second chance that he doesn't deserve.

He's grateful that Sideswipe even seems to want to talk to him, really. At the sound of his bizarre nickname Lavellan turns back and offers a wan smile.]

Hello. How have you been, Sideswipe?

[redshitlord]

[It takes literally two seconds for him to process that. Pass through the sudden indignation of how do you think he was. And all but leap off his own hood to bound over to his friend.]

[The headlights on his real body brightening, flashing, while his holoform all but collides with Lavellan.]

[To hug him.]

Where were you? You jerk?

[Still hugging. Though the holo flickers a little in the process.]

[lavelly]

[Lavellan flinches at the contact, doesn't hug him back, but doesn't pull away, either. He waits for Sideswipe to get it out of his system before he leans back and considers how to answer.

Where was he? What a question. There was no way to put in words where he'd been. In the end, he just shrugs.]

I don't really know. They were... helping me. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but there was so much going on, I...

[No. That's an excuse. Lavellan shakes his head.]

I should have told you. It was selfish of me not to. I'm sorry, Sideswipe.

[redshitlord]

[He resists, for a minute. Resists Lavellan pulling back, because honestly, it feels like if he loses hold, he's going to disappear again. When his friend actually does lean back, Sideswipe looks like he's been kicked in the chest.]

What are you talking about, dude...? Who's they?

[He shakes his head too. A little frantically.]

N-no, just. Tell me what happened.

[lavelly]

The intermediaries. [He sounds weary more than anything. It was an intense couple of weeks, but he's mostly just tired.]

I was in mediation. Because... [He falters, but he owes it to Sideswipe to tell him the truth. The real reason why Lavellan vanished on him without warning.

He shakes out of Sideswip's grip and spreads his arms with resignation. It's still hard to admit.]

Because of this.

[redshitlord]

The... who?

[He should know. He feels like he should really know. But just blinks rapidly, trying to sort it out. Most of them have avoided the giant robot, or the car he turns into -- not that he's aware of it.]

[Then Lavellan spreads his hands. To his credit, Sideswipe looks around, and tries to think this one through, before pulling out an answer.]

... because of... your hands...?

[He tried.]

[lavelly]

[Lavellan would laugh, if it was any other topic. Instead he sighs. Sideswipe's innocence could make things more difficult than they needed to be, sometimes.]

Because I did this. I'm the one who broke the Ingress. It was me.

[He jerks his chin up, keeps eye contact. If Sideswipe feels betrayed because of this, if he wants to come at him, Lavellan will welcome it.]

[redshitlord]

[He just... stares at him. That kicked in the chest look back in his face. He doesn't look angry. Doesn't look anything but hurt and confused by this information.]

[It doesn't make sense. Wasn't that thing how they were supposed to get home? Didn't anyone else get that?]

[Why--]

Why would you -- dude. Why would you do that? It's -- that's how we're supposed to go home, man.

[lavelly]

[All he can do is look at his hands.]

Because I wanted to be a hero. Because I only cared about myself.

[He takes a shuddering breath.]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Sideswipe. There's no excuse for this. I did it because I was selfish.

[redshitlord]

[Because I wanted to be a hero.]

[There are... so many things wrong with that statement. Heroes don't hurt people. Heroes don't break things. They don't make things worse.]

[I wanted to be a hero.]

[Isn't that what you always want, Sideswipe?]

[His holo looks away. And steps back enough to drag a hand across his eyes. Frantically.]

That -- why didn't you tell me? I could've--! [Helped. Could have done something. Could have been the hero.] But this just made stuff worse!

[lavelly]

You're right. It did.

[He looks for a moment like he might continue, but he doesn't. There really isn't anything else he can say. He wanted to be a hero and in the process he made things worse.

That's all there is to it.]

So that's why I was in mediation.

[redshitlord]

Why... did you think it was gonna do something?

[He just looks hurt. There's tears pricking at the corners of his holoform's eyes. Because he doesn't know what to do with himself here. Should he be angry? Upset?]

[How is he supposed to feel?]

rip me: the thread

[lavelly]

I told myself I was doing it for Shepard. Because I thought she was in trouble and I wanted to save her. I wanted them to take me to where she was so I could get answers.

[His voice is quiet and halting. It kills him to do this to Sideswipe, but what else is there to do? This is the truth. If he didn't want this to happen, he should have thought about it before.]

I'm sorry. I wish I could tell you there was some reason for it, but there wasn't. I did it so I could feel like I was doing something. I just--I'm not the person you thought I was.

[And there's nothing more he can say to that, either. Surprise: he's a monster, and Sideswipe doesn't deserve to have him in his life. Sorry sorry sorry sorry.]

8D

[redshitlord]

But that -- That's not -- people are freezing, dude. There's -- you could've told me!

There's all kinds of stuff you could've done to get arrested instead! Trust me! I'm king screw-up!

[There's something incredibly bitter in those last words. Something that cracks and moves along the edges of them, like his holoform flickering in and out of solidity.]

[That's what everyone always said about him. Wasn't it? What Strongarm, what Bee and even Ultra Magnus said about him.]

[lavelly]

[Lavellan's silent. There's nothing to say. There's nothing to say. He can't justify himself. Whatever explanation Sideswipe is hoping for, he can't give.

He could have told. He could have done something else. He could have done so many things to prevent this disaster, but he didn't. And here they are.

This is who he is. He has nothing to hide behind anymore.]

[redshitlord]

[He just stares at him. Waiting. Hoping something is going to come out that makes everything make sense. There's going to be something, right?]

[That's how people work. Everyone who acts older than he is. His holo's bright blue eyes don't even blink -- he's forgotten that, in everything.]

Say something!

[There's a lot of desperation in those two words. Say something to make this okay.]

[lavelly]

[It's hard to look at him. Somehow this is the hardest of all, having to show this person--this kid--who'd shown nothing but affection for him that he wasn't worthy of any of it.

But Lavellan makes himself look. He owes Sideswipe that much. He holds his gaze even as he steps back, confirming in all ways that matter that he is exactly the failure that Sideswipe is hoping he somehow isn't.]

I'm sorry. I wish I could take it back.

[redshitlord]

[His holoform flickers. Wildly. Like a film running to the end of the strip. What does he even say? Why are all the "adults" falling over themselves around him?]

[What's he supposed to do?]

Where...

Where are you going?

[But as much as part of him says to follow, to drag him back and make him explain, he can't make his feet move.]

[lavelly]

I don't know.

[He keeps backing up, faster and faster, like he's going to run. Maybe he is. All he knows is he can't bear to stay here and hurt Sideswipe anymore.]

I just... I need to make things right somehow.

[redshitlord]

So you're leaving me again!

[He isn't entirely sure when he transformed. Or when he cancelled the holo. He just knows, suddenly, he's kneeling in the road.]

[Just... trying to reach out or stop him or something.]

[lavelly]

[That makes him stop. But it doesn't make him come back.

Instead he just looks at this... strange being that he's come to care deeply about, that he's betraying right now, and shakes his head.]

You deserve better than me in your life, Sideswipe.

[redshitlord]

No!

You -- [This is Riptide all over again. This is Riptide and the hundreds of things he'd said about him not being good enough, while Sideswipe just held on stubbornly.]

[Determinedly. Not wanting someone to drag him away from someone who seemed like they believed in him, for once. It's Riptide all over again and he doesn't know if he can take that.]

-- you don't get to tell me that! You don't get to suddenly say what someone else needs to have! Okay?

I am so sick of you all doing that!

[lavelly]

Do you understand what I did?

[He surprises himself by shouting. He didn't mean to, but he's just so frustrated, and as much as he cares about Sideswipe he can't handle the neediness right now. There's a buzzing in his skull and it's only increasing the longer he stays here having this conversation.]

This isn't something I can just pretend didn't happen. I need to do something. And maybe that means leaving until I figure out what that is, I don't know, but don't you get that this is more important?

[redshitlord]

[Something just snaps. Maybe if Lavellan had used different words, phrased it another way, it wouldn't have broken down like it has. He wouldn't feel like screaming.]

Fine! Fine!

Get out of here! Run off again and not tell me anything, because I'm a dumb kid, right? I'm some stupid kid who doesn't understand things, or you gotta protect me or some scrap like that!

[They were almost the same words he'd heard the last time he saw Riptide. The reason the other Autobots had never told him anything upfront. The same tone people like Strongarm had always used.]

[That I know better than you, that stupid kid tone.]

If I don't know, it's because none of you will tell me anything! Then you act like it's all my fault!

And then you leave!

... just like ... just -- fine! It's just fine!

[It's not fine. He's just so sick of this. Of this stupid place.]

But don't expect that I'm gonna be waiting around for you to get back!