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( february intro log )
Who: Everyone
When: February 1st and on
Where: The Moira + Emiri
What: The crew finds themselves on the planet of Emiri
Warnings: Mentions of a corpse. Please label your content!
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When: February 1st and on
Where: The Moira + Emiri
What: The crew finds themselves on the planet of Emiri
Warnings: Mentions of a corpse. Please label your content!
I N T R O L O G |
"There will be no prison which can hold our movement down."
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Maybe Loki was cooking up something half-decent. Or maybe he'd just hunt around for something cold and melty. Sweet and salty? He'd experiment. For the first time in a while, Sans felt no pressure to rush.
The feeling was fleeting, unfortunately. It evaporated clean away the moment Sans opened the door and saw the small, harried child digging through shelves far too tall for them.
Standing frozen in the doorway, he found himself completely at a loss for words.
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"Sans?"
Frisk's heart leaps in their chest, several conflicting emotions briefly warring for dominance. Worry that the skeleton is here at all, happiness to be able to see him again, guilt at being caught in making such a giant mess by their dear old dunkle...they hesitate for a moment before they break out into a run across the mess of a kitchen with arms held wide and tears catching at the corners of their eyes.
"You're here!"
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Before Sans realized where he really was or what was happening, he stepped back, hand outstretched. Frisk's soul was blue before they could make it even halfway towards the door.
"When did you get here?"
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"I..." Frisk swallows, suddenly even more unsure than they had been the first time they had turned around at that bridge. "A...a few weeks ago."
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How many times did they all repeat last week? How many times did he run through St. Murtel? How many times were the children evacuated? How many times did they not make it off Emiri at all? How many times did his brother die? How many ways?
He was still in that long golden hall, even after all this time. And he might have stayed there if it wasn't for the soul that was now pulsing blue in his magic's grip. The number didn't add up. Their soul should be heavier, weighed down with the heft of their sins.
For the first time, Sans looked at the child, reading their face. Shock, of course. Worry, fear, hope? None of the cruelty and dead-eyed determination he remembered.
In an instant, Sans jerked back, Frisk dropping back to the floor along with their soul. He didn't say another word, turning his back to the child to heave out a few gasping breaths. It was as much a sign of uneasy trust as Frisk was going to get, as the silence that stretched out between them was broken only by the quiet rattle of Sans' bones.
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Sans always catches on quicker when they start acting off-script, or let little hints of future history slip out without meaning to. He never does anything, but they can feel the sharp snap of his gaze in that flinching moment, and in all honesty they can't exactly blame him. Frisk may not be the one initiating it all, but it's still their fault the loops are happening in the first place.
Just as suddenly as the magic swept them up Frisk is dumped back onto the floor, and they stumble a bit before just...staring at Sans for several long seconds. He looks just as rattled as they feel, almost...afraid? What is he afraid of?
Slowly, hesitantly, they take a few steps closer. "Sans...what's wrong? What happened?"
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"Kid, that's a big question."
For a long time, Sans wished he could hold onto his memories between resets. At least then progress could be made, on the machine or even just understanding why the child did what they did. In the light of recent experience, Sans wanted to laugh at those old misguided wishes. Losing his memories with each reset was one of the greatest gifts he was allowed in his sad excuse for a life.
"I think I missed my cue. This is the part where I shake your hand, right?" He turned back around, rubbing the heel of his palm against his eye socket with a broken chuckle. "Or maybe this is the part where my bro tries his hardest to get you to play along. I gotta tell you kiddo, I'm lost, so maybe you could fill me in?"
There's a sharpness to his voice that the Sans from Frisk's timeline would never use. Maybe towards school bullies or the few humans that didn't care for monsters walking among them, but not on Frisk. Never them.
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"I-I...no..." They can't speak, can't force a single word out past the lump in their throat. God, he knows, he knows, and he hates them now, they knew it would go this way, they'd been trying so hard, it wasn't fair--! Mutely shaking their head, Frisk starts signing frantically in an attempt to answer.
I don't know what you're talking about!
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He could do something about it right now. His promise was already broken the moment he first flung the human to the ground in that long hallway. There was no binding word keeping him from snuffing the light out of potential killer before LOVE even entered the equation.
Magic gathered in his eye.
He could do it. He could.
--The sudden switch to Hands startles Sans from his train of thought, for reasons he can't quite grasp or remember but leave him uneasy all the same. Magic flowed out of him as quickly as it came, bringing Sans back to the reality of the crying child in front of him.
"Kid... we both know what you are."
His voice isn't unkind so much as insisting. Why even bother trying to hide it? His cards were on the table. It was about time they showed theirs.
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I didn't mean to I'm sorry I wanted to stay I wanted everyone happy
Tears are blurring their vision, and they try again to speak. All that comes out is a faint whimper. They don't want to be alone again.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
It's not enough. It will never be enough, not when Frisk couldn't do this one simple thing. Just don't RESET. Just hold the timeline, that's all they had to do, but they never could get anything right, could they? It's always their fault, they always mess up, they can never do it right.
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It was a shitty plan, a plan that ultimately didn't work, but it was a plan.
Now, Sans felt adrift, watching the child flash the same repeating sign over and over again. He didn't know how to proceed. Stop this cycle now, while he still had a chance, or give what little comfort he knew how. His good sense was at war with his good nature, leaving Sans hopelessly stuck.
Unfortunately for him, monsters were weird. And though Sans hated himself for it, he dropped down to his knee in front of the child, slowly taking their hands in his own to quell their desperate shaking.
"Kiddo. Calm down. Look at me."
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"M...mnn."
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Sans had to hold onto that.
"I dunno what's going on. Things are different here. Between you and me, I think there are some, ah... determined individuals aboard that might outclass you." Not that Sans knew about Chara yet; there were plenty of others coming to mind. "Whatever it is, I need you to tell me what you remember. I'm only workin' with one timeline's worth of memories over here. I know we don't really know each other, or hell maybe we do, but can you help a guy out?"
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Hearing that there are other determined humans around the ship is worrying, of course, but Frisk is confident they can hold if not the timeline then at least their own memories. It's not much, but it's something at least.
It takes a moment, but they nod in response, trying to swallow down the thick feeling in their throat. "O...okay," they finally manage with a tiny, meek voice.
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Sans's voice is low, trying to sound more comforting than the odd sort of detachment he feels. This is... bizarre. Just looking at the kid like this, it's enough to make Sans feel several different emotions at once. He was used to deja vu. It happened all the time. He could ignore it. This? Having hard and fast memories there as point of reference?
Wrestling with them was exhausting.
"Whenever you're ready, I guess." Sans looked around their surroundings before letting go of their hands, standing to his feet. "... Well, maybe not here. C'mon. I know a shortcut."
He held out his hand, browbone raised.
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Another quiet nod, and Frisk places their hand in the skeleton's own with a wobbly, tired smile that speaks of far more trust than they should have in a monster that had been mere seconds away from killing them in cold blood. While that nervousness and fear is still there, something else is blooming again beneath, a warmth that never, ever seems to die no matter what Frisk is put through.
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"Figure we'll get more privacy this way." He took a breath, taking stock of the sky. It never got old, peering out through that inky blackness. Sans had no wishes to make, but he was grateful to the stars all the same. "Whenever you're ready."
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Their stomach is in knots as they settle down cross-legged next to Sans, wanting to lean against his side as they would when star-gazing back home but not daring to here. Their heart is still thumping, and Frisk scrubs at their eyes to try and dry their tears. It's hard at first, to try and decide where to start, but...maybe the beginning is the best. Sans wanted to know all of it, and...they don't have anything to hide behind anymore. He's already said as much.
"I...I woke up in the Ruins. That's always where it starts. I wake up, and Flowey is there. He talks to me, tries to--" Frisk's breath hitches for a moment, and they bite their lip. "He tries to hurt me, but Mom always shows up to scare him off. She guides me through the Ruins, an' I explore for a bit...she's always so scared when I have to leave. But...I have to go if I'm gonna free everyone."
They hadn't wanted to leave, that first time. Toriel is so kind, so patient, but the nagging feeling in the back of Frisk's mind had become so insistent. They had to move onward, press forward. They have a duty.
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It didn't make any sense, but somehow, Sans knew they were referring to the woman behind the door. Sans felt his chest ache. Did she survive after all?
"Go on," he managed, voice even.
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"Toriel...she tries to make me fight her. To prove I'm strong enough to make it through to the castle. It...it always takes a while, to make her back down again. An' then I leave, and...I meet you."
Frisk glances over shyly, both hands scrunched up in the fabric of their pants. "I...I'm not pretending to like Papyrus' puzzles, you know? They're really fun! And he worked so hard on all of them, too. You both...you always make me laugh. I don't know what I would have done if you both weren't there for me."
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"And then you free us, don't you?" Sans asked, though it wasn't really a question. He didn't remember it, but the pattern of this story felt as worn and well traveled as the path through Waterfall. "And then you bring us all back."
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"I-it's not me! I don't want to do it over again, I want to stay! But it...s-something else RESETS it all. I try so hard to hold on, t-to keep us there, but..."
Fat, hot tears are rolling down their cheeks, and the sobs start in earnest. There's no possible way Sans will ever believe them, but they have to try! "B-but I can't! I'm trying, I'm trying so hard but I don't know what to do! I don't know what I'm doing wrong!"
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The soft, hitching sobs were enough to bring that same realization back tenfold. Only instead of the cold lack of feeling, Sans found himself actually guilty. It wasn't pleasant.
"Hey, hey... take a breath." His voice was equal parts encouraging and awkward. Carefully, he put a bony hand to their back and rubbed in slow circles. They were trembling. "I don't think you're lying."
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Breaking down into a wailing cry, Frisk turns and grabs a hold of Sans's coat with the kind of desperation only a small child can really show. They cling on tightly, burying their face against it and crying out all their tired grief, the hurt and pain the cycle has heaped onto their small shoulders.
this kills the man
But the moment passed, and muscle memory kicked in. Drawing his other arm around the child, Sans held them close with a heaving sigh.
"It's gonna be okay, kiddo." He wasn't sure how much he believed it, but he found himself hoping it was true for Frisk's sake. For all of their sakes, really. "You're okay."
i can't
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