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Who: Declan & St. Monmouth folks, or anyone.
When: late March
Where: St. Monmouth
What: Declan realizes that even running away to another planet doesn't solve any of his problems.
Warnings: language. will update as threads progress

[Monmouth looks so peaceful this late at night. The firelights, the dream trees, the flowers that always seem to glow. They all lend an air of magic to the whole place and all Declan can think about is that none of it is really worth it. None of anything their father had was worth it, and now it's all rushing in and catching up to Ronan as well.

The last thing Declan feels is peaceful. Back in Virginia he could manage it all, it was his life's work. But here? He doesn't know if even God himself could get rid of these demons.

Sitting on the front steps of his newly dreamt up house, rubbing at the fresh bruise along his jaw, he is thankful for one thing, at least: the never ending alcohol in this dreamt up flask.]

closed to Gansey

[Declan gives himself a day, because even he has to regroup sometimes and this one's a doozy. If there was something immediate he could do, he'd already be doing it, but demons aren't part of his expertise. Maybe he should have paid better attention in Church. Maybe that's what he needs right now, too.

But other than church, there's Richard Gansey, who always seems to be able to help when Declan can't quite get there. Declan has always been grateful even if it's less than apparent and he knows Gansey must respect him as well, at least for the most part.

After they fought (the briefest of fights, Gansey might actually be proud, only Declan's face showing any signs that one even took place), Ronan filled him in on whatever he could, but he told Declan to ask Gansey the rest. That Gansey was there at the end. The end. Matthew and Ronan coming undone. He isn't ready to hear the rest of this, but he knows he has to be if he wants to figure out what to do about it. Knocking on Gansey's door, he waits for a reply. ]

(lmk if there's anything else you'd like to do that doesn't fit into this scenario, i'm open!)

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[ Adam's had another long day and he's grabbed some pizza -- which isn't really what he wants but he's useless for actually making anything. He takes a soda as well and settles down at the table, one knee pulled up to his chest as he idly eats.

He has his TAB on the table, scrolling through random news stories and nothing in particular catching his interest. He's not expecting anyone to talk to him. He's not been completely avoidant but he's not been going out of his way to talk to anyone lately either. ]

[Declan has his place with Matthew off on the Monmouth property, but he's been finding himself around the main house more and more. Maybe to keep an eye on Ronan and make sure he's doing alright, partially because as much as he didn't want to be in the middle of a frat house situation, he needs the company.

Things have been tumultuous the past few days, but Declan knows he has to eat, he has to keep himself together. That's what he does.

He hasn't figured out what he wants his food situation at his place to be yet anyway, but there seems to be an endless flow of pizza at Monmouth, so he heads to the kitchen as well, slowing when he sees Adam sitting at the table, not sure if he wants to disturb him.

Adam doesn't seem to be that focused on what he's reading though, so Declan grabs a slice of pizza and comes over]

Do you mind if I sit?

[ Adam, perhaps, a few days before might have flat out said no...or immediately excused himself. As it is, he finds himself wary of talking to Declan again bcause the last time had gone so good and all. He looks down, then gives a half-hearted shrug, flicking to the next screen on his TAB mindlessly. He's not even trying to read what's there anymore. Declan's proximity feels oppressive but not really becuase of anything the other is doing or saying or even said.

He's just hesitant. Gunshy. ]

Go ahead.

[ Declan's just sitting right? Not like he has to make conversation. He flicks to the next screen having not read a word on the previous. ]

[Declan doesn't really know what happened after the last time they talked. Not on Adam's end anyway. On his end, he went after Jesse like he felt he had every right to, and then Ronan punched him and told him the whole story. It's not something Declan really wants to get into, even if he has several questions for Adam. They could both use a break, he imagines.

With Adam's okay, Declan joins him at the table, taking a bite of his slice]

What are you reading?

[Adam shrugs and he continues switching screens focusing even less now and it's a nervous movement that he's resenting himself for a bit internally.]

Just looking for interesting articles. [He shrugs, drinking from his soda and sparing Declan a bit of a longer glance. He's still not sure where they stand. He feels awkward and every bit not worthy of Ronan whenever he's around his brothers.]

[He's not sure where they stand either, but he has no reason to think there's any bad blood between them after the other day. He hopes there isn't anyway]

I haven't even attempted to read any on that thing yet.

[He nods his head toward the TAB]

But I have to admit, I could use an article or two. I really miss having a newspaper in the morning, or watching MSNBC. Do they even have anything like that here?

[Alien politics, he's not sure he'd really be into that. Then again, maybe it's even better here than back on their planet. Not hard to imagine at this point]

Probably. I don't really pay attention to that sort of thing.

[At least not here, back home he did when he had the spare time which wasn't often at all... And he didn't have a TV which complicated things.]

Mostly just look at scientific shit, I guess.

Really? What were you headed off to college to do?

[Declan doesn't really think about if Adam had a TV or not. He doesn't know Adam that well, though he's heard things here and there, but still. It's not enough to put a whole picture in his head]

Does this place have five moons, or creatures with multiple heads?

I hadn't decided exactly. I was focused on getting out.

[ In all honesty, perhaps, Adam hadn't had a clear plan after college. The plan was to get out, to make a living to be successful. Political? Businessman? It hadn't particularly mattered to him which way it happened. Now he's not sure that being so open ended on the functional part of his goals isn't the best way to approach anything.

It doesn't matter now anyway. ]

Something like that. There's weird shit for everyone to enjoy or fear.

Did you have a college in mind? Or colleges?

[This is some real world shit he can focus on, even if it's pointless here. The reality of that hasn't yet sunk in just yet, he's had a lot of other things on his mind]

Sounds interesting, actually. Maybe I'll glance at it. How do I...

[He starts, pulling his TAB out and sliding his chair closer to Adam]

[ Adam hesitates at the questions. It feels weird to talk about something that's now so far away it doesn't feel real anymore. He's not completely sure it's even what he wants anymore. Somehow, becoming happy being away from his nightmare of a family and building a life with Ronan even one that's uncertain and full of pitfalls and insecurities had left him more content and happy than he thought he could have been.

But then again, his main worry -- money -- isn't completely an issue here and neither is time aside from the time clicking down to figuring out how to save Ronan. ]

Oh.

[ It's not hard really so when declan is closer and the TAB is out, he points at the place to press to get to more options/applications. It's all conveniently alphabetical of course, though, much like smartphones from home which he'd never had. It'd taken him a bit to get used to a TAB actually. ]

You just go to News and there's all sorts of things in there. I mostly stay in the science section like i said.

[If Adam has figured out how to be content and happy here even without all his goals and aspirations, Declan will soon enough want to hear about it. But just as much, he's still stuck on everything from back home. It's still too soon for him to see anything else]

This is great. I love this thing. Haven't had a chance to check it all out yet. A lot of the people I usually talk to are suddenly in very close proximity.

[He laughs softly, then follows what Adam says and finds the science section]

Lot more than I thought there would be. Who puts all these articles out?

You can use it to find some other new people too, if you wanted. [ Adam's not huge on the network but he supposes it can be a bit handy. ]

I don't know. There's a whole research center and stuff around... and like a planet that seems more inclined to that stuff. [ He's not really been paying attention to who is writing the articles but perhaps he should be. ]

I will definitely be doing that, yes. Hey, who knows. There might even be other people here we know.

[The good ones, he hopes. Not some shithead like Greenmantle. ]

Alien journalism and research? Sounds interesting. Have you ventured out to any of the other planets?

[ Adam shrugs. He kind of thinks that if there were more people they knew that somehow they would have found them already but maybe he's wrong. Probably the people they both find important are completely different ends of the spectrum anyway. Mostly, Adam wishes Persephone could be here.

That's neither here nor there he supposes and pushes the thoughts away. ]

Went to one with Ronan a while ago.

[Declan doesn't really know who else he wishes were here. His mother, definitely. Ashley, maybe. The rest of his friends are all pretty recyclable. He's never had anything quite like Ronan's had as far as friends go. Always safer for him not to, anyway]

Oh yeah? What did you see there?

[ Adam hedges for a moment at the question. He'd seen Niall. He'd seen his own father. It hadn't been completely pleasant by the end of it. Something of pain probably flickers over his face if Declan is looking close enough to catch it.

But he doesn't talk about that part of Deslora. ]

It was like a carnival shit or something. There was mazes and lots of cool food... Like weird games and stuff.

[ He hasn't traveled all that much since Ronan doesn't like to really go anywhere. ]

[Now that would have been some conversation. Declan knowing there was a way to see Niall. He probably wouldn't ever want to see him again, but just knowing the option was out there would be something.

Declan does catch the look, tilting his head just slightly. He wonders how Ronan and Adam are doing with each other, because that's what the look means to him more than anything else]

Really? I should take Matthew that way, he'd probably like it. You and Ronan played carnival games?

[ It's not so much that Niall was real. And it's entirely possibly that if Declan had gone into that game that Niall wouldn't have been what he saw but something different. Adam doesn't know Declan all that well.

His brows furrow at the mention of taking Matthew. ]

It's definitely not a place you'd want to take Matthew.

[Declan doesn't know anything about it. He's counting on Adam, Gansey, Ronan to fill him in on the details, though he knows Adam might be hesitant now- as always, he supposes. Adam wasn't really the person who filled him in on any details, even before]

What's wrong with mazes and cool food? What else is over there?

[ Adam shrugs, taking a few sips of his drink. ]

What could be wrong with taking things out of dreams?

[ A rhetorical question but it should get the point across. ]

[Seeing as Adam hadn't really described what was going on at the carnival aside from rides and cool food... and is still being pretty tight lipped about it, Declan raises his eyebrows]

Well for one, that's a planet, not a person. Or people. Sounded like you had a pretty good time there with Ronan, unless I'm mistaken. There's plenty wrong with taking things out of dreams, but that's because I know all about it. You can tell me more about this planet and carnival if you'd like.

There's just more to it than meets the eye. I'd rather not talk about it though. It's just not a place to take Matthew.

[ Adam doesn't want to talk about it because in truth the most identifying memory that prevails is the memory of his father being a violent shit fuck and well... it hadn't been pretty. ]

Alright.

[Declan gives a nod. He won't push it. He knows he already pushed Adam too far when they spoke the last time]

Is there any place you would recommend I take him? We're going to need to explore sometime soon.

I'm not sure. Andyr might know more. I haven't gone many places. [Since Ronan doesn't like to go much and Adam has plenty to do at work.]