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Who: Declan & St. Monmouth folks, or anyone.
When: late March
Where: St. Monmouth
What: Declan realizes that even running away to another planet doesn't solve any of his problems.
Warnings: language. will update as threads progress

[Monmouth looks so peaceful this late at night. The firelights, the dream trees, the flowers that always seem to glow. They all lend an air of magic to the whole place and all Declan can think about is that none of it is really worth it. None of anything their father had was worth it, and now it's all rushing in and catching up to Ronan as well.

The last thing Declan feels is peaceful. Back in Virginia he could manage it all, it was his life's work. But here? He doesn't know if even God himself could get rid of these demons.

Sitting on the front steps of his newly dreamt up house, rubbing at the fresh bruise along his jaw, he is thankful for one thing, at least: the never ending alcohol in this dreamt up flask.]

closed to Gansey

[Declan gives himself a day, because even he has to regroup sometimes and this one's a doozy. If there was something immediate he could do, he'd already be doing it, but demons aren't part of his expertise. Maybe he should have paid better attention in Church. Maybe that's what he needs right now, too.

But other than church, there's Richard Gansey, who always seems to be able to help when Declan can't quite get there. Declan has always been grateful even if it's less than apparent and he knows Gansey must respect him as well, at least for the most part.

After they fought (the briefest of fights, Gansey might actually be proud, only Declan's face showing any signs that one even took place), Ronan filled him in on whatever he could, but he told Declan to ask Gansey the rest. That Gansey was there at the end. The end. Matthew and Ronan coming undone. He isn't ready to hear the rest of this, but he knows he has to be if he wants to figure out what to do about it. Knocking on Gansey's door, he waits for a reply. ]

(lmk if there's anything else you'd like to do that doesn't fit into this scenario, i'm open!)

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[ Adam hesitates at the questions. It feels weird to talk about something that's now so far away it doesn't feel real anymore. He's not completely sure it's even what he wants anymore. Somehow, becoming happy being away from his nightmare of a family and building a life with Ronan even one that's uncertain and full of pitfalls and insecurities had left him more content and happy than he thought he could have been.

But then again, his main worry -- money -- isn't completely an issue here and neither is time aside from the time clicking down to figuring out how to save Ronan. ]

Oh.

[ It's not hard really so when declan is closer and the TAB is out, he points at the place to press to get to more options/applications. It's all conveniently alphabetical of course, though, much like smartphones from home which he'd never had. It'd taken him a bit to get used to a TAB actually. ]

You just go to News and there's all sorts of things in there. I mostly stay in the science section like i said.

[If Adam has figured out how to be content and happy here even without all his goals and aspirations, Declan will soon enough want to hear about it. But just as much, he's still stuck on everything from back home. It's still too soon for him to see anything else]

This is great. I love this thing. Haven't had a chance to check it all out yet. A lot of the people I usually talk to are suddenly in very close proximity.

[He laughs softly, then follows what Adam says and finds the science section]

Lot more than I thought there would be. Who puts all these articles out?

You can use it to find some other new people too, if you wanted. [ Adam's not huge on the network but he supposes it can be a bit handy. ]

I don't know. There's a whole research center and stuff around... and like a planet that seems more inclined to that stuff. [ He's not really been paying attention to who is writing the articles but perhaps he should be. ]

I will definitely be doing that, yes. Hey, who knows. There might even be other people here we know.

[The good ones, he hopes. Not some shithead like Greenmantle. ]

Alien journalism and research? Sounds interesting. Have you ventured out to any of the other planets?

[ Adam shrugs. He kind of thinks that if there were more people they knew that somehow they would have found them already but maybe he's wrong. Probably the people they both find important are completely different ends of the spectrum anyway. Mostly, Adam wishes Persephone could be here.

That's neither here nor there he supposes and pushes the thoughts away. ]

Went to one with Ronan a while ago.

[Declan doesn't really know who else he wishes were here. His mother, definitely. Ashley, maybe. The rest of his friends are all pretty recyclable. He's never had anything quite like Ronan's had as far as friends go. Always safer for him not to, anyway]

Oh yeah? What did you see there?

[ Adam hedges for a moment at the question. He'd seen Niall. He'd seen his own father. It hadn't been completely pleasant by the end of it. Something of pain probably flickers over his face if Declan is looking close enough to catch it.

But he doesn't talk about that part of Deslora. ]

It was like a carnival shit or something. There was mazes and lots of cool food... Like weird games and stuff.

[ He hasn't traveled all that much since Ronan doesn't like to really go anywhere. ]

[Now that would have been some conversation. Declan knowing there was a way to see Niall. He probably wouldn't ever want to see him again, but just knowing the option was out there would be something.

Declan does catch the look, tilting his head just slightly. He wonders how Ronan and Adam are doing with each other, because that's what the look means to him more than anything else]

Really? I should take Matthew that way, he'd probably like it. You and Ronan played carnival games?

[ It's not so much that Niall was real. And it's entirely possibly that if Declan had gone into that game that Niall wouldn't have been what he saw but something different. Adam doesn't know Declan all that well.

His brows furrow at the mention of taking Matthew. ]

It's definitely not a place you'd want to take Matthew.

[Declan doesn't know anything about it. He's counting on Adam, Gansey, Ronan to fill him in on the details, though he knows Adam might be hesitant now- as always, he supposes. Adam wasn't really the person who filled him in on any details, even before]

What's wrong with mazes and cool food? What else is over there?

[ Adam shrugs, taking a few sips of his drink. ]

What could be wrong with taking things out of dreams?

[ A rhetorical question but it should get the point across. ]

[Seeing as Adam hadn't really described what was going on at the carnival aside from rides and cool food... and is still being pretty tight lipped about it, Declan raises his eyebrows]

Well for one, that's a planet, not a person. Or people. Sounded like you had a pretty good time there with Ronan, unless I'm mistaken. There's plenty wrong with taking things out of dreams, but that's because I know all about it. You can tell me more about this planet and carnival if you'd like.

There's just more to it than meets the eye. I'd rather not talk about it though. It's just not a place to take Matthew.

[ Adam doesn't want to talk about it because in truth the most identifying memory that prevails is the memory of his father being a violent shit fuck and well... it hadn't been pretty. ]

Alright.

[Declan gives a nod. He won't push it. He knows he already pushed Adam too far when they spoke the last time]

Is there any place you would recommend I take him? We're going to need to explore sometime soon.

I'm not sure. Andyr might know more. I haven't gone many places. [Since Ronan doesn't like to go much and Adam has plenty to do at work.]

Andyr. Right.

[Declan clears his throat softly, sitting back a little] He's interesting. I don't quite get what's going on there, but... I have to start taking things in stride, I guess. Easier said than done.

What do you mean you don't get what's going on? [ Adam looks a bit puzzled, he starts fidgeting with his drink. ]

Well....

[Declan starts and then tries to think of the best way to approach this. No judgements... he's not sure how that's actually working out for him]

When I met him, he was coming out of Ronan's room, all...

[Does Adam even know? He's not sure. Ronan isn't the type to cheat, or to spread himself around. He's given Declan plenty of shit for that one. Still, he doesn't want to cause any issues]

I'm not sure how well anyone here knows each other, that's all.

[ Adam stifles a grin, covering his mouth with his hand briefly and then clearing his throat. Well, apparently Declan's run into Andyr at an inopportune time. ]

I was probably in that room too. [ Adam clears his throat and dropping his hand. Mostly, for the moment he's not worried so much about Declan approving of him as he is about Declan approving of Andyr. ]

Ronan really doesn't tell you anything does he?

[It's a good thing Adam is amused but it, because Declan wouldn't know what to do if it ended up being anything else. The whole encounter was a little bit shocking, but Declan tried to take it in stride.

He's really glad he doesn't have any water to spit out, though and he feels uneasy about it for reasons he can't really put his finger on]

Oh. Well that's something. And no, we really haven't had a chance to talk about this since everything else came up. Is this some sort of survival thing?

Andyr is our boyfriend. [Adam and Ronan are one unit and Andyr is theirs.]

I'm not sure what you mean by survival. I don't think he's a succubus or anything.

What, like a threesome?

[Well this is a conversation he never thought he'd be having. Not about Ronan of all people and definitely not with Adam. He rubs his forehead, dropping the rest of his slice down on his plate]

No, I meant, like in those apocalyptic movies where people do what it takes to survive. New laws, new family dynamics, survival of the fittest type of thing.

[Or maybe when Ronan discovered himself, he just really discovered himself]

[ Adam shrugs because put like that, he's not sure it's the most accurage way of describing them. It sounds trite. ]

It's just how things happened.

[ Well, it didn't just happen there was a lot of work and trouble along the way. ]

[Declan doesn't really know how else to put it. He can't imagine a relationship like this could realistically sustain itself and he wonders how in the hell someone like Ronan, who would constantly shame him for his relationships, would get into something like this. So he figures it's for survival reasons. Everything he had to go through here]

And you're all okay with this? How did the other guy even get mixed into it? I thought... well, you and Ronan. I thought that was... hm. I'm not even sure.

So between work and two people, you must be exhausted.

[ Adam shifts uncomfortably at the questions that Declan returns with. He wonders if again he's told Declan things that Ronan would get pissed about. He runs his fingers through his hair and decides he really shouldn't say anything at all.

Maybe he shouldn't be talking to Declan at all, he should've learned his lesson last time. ]

Maybe you should ask Ronan about all that.

[ Adam says it quietly and it's not likely Ronan would talk about it or that Declan would ask, he thinks but at least it makes it clear he doesn't want to answer himself. ]

Not anymore exhausted than I've always been. [ Three jobs and school and then taking care of the leylines. He has always had a lot of responsibilities. ]