[banging fists on table] MORE ROBOT DRAMA MORE ROBOT DRAMA MORE ROBOT DR

[knaval]

Who: riptide and some other dudes
When: after magnus's post
Where: riptide's room
What: sad fish boy
Warnings: cw for possible discussion of war, violence, ptsd, generally the depressing shit you get with these metal tittybabies



a. magnus

[accepting his fate, riptide allowed magnus to drag him to his room, no longer fighting.

if he had more knowledge of the situation, he would respond differently. he doesn't, though, and all he knows is he takes part in something that results in all his friends being left for the djd. after everything he's experienced in regards to tarn aboard to moira, after everything everyone has done for him, he was still stupid and selfish enough to leave them all for dead.

what the fuck did getaway say to him?

these are things that riptide will wonder about until he's physically unable to stay awake anymore, but for now he just lets whatever's going to happen to him happen.]

b. megatron

[they didn't finish the wall.

riptide eventually gets sick of laying on his bed staring at it like a useless sack of shit and gets up, sliding off the berth to carefully press at the edges still sticking out awkwardly.

he still thinks the table looked fine where it was.

sighing, riptide gets to work. missing brainstorm and nautica intensely for a moment before telling himself he doesn't deserve to.]

c. anyone else

[you want this sad fish? come yell at him in his room. he's not leaving.]

Comments

[heelys]

You don't know? What the frag is that supposed to mean?! [He's squeaking angrily now, mostly because he's geting upset too and he doesn't know what else to do to pull this massive idiot out of his own head.]

You're a good guy, Riptide! Deep down, in your spark, you know that you wouldn't do anything like this on purpose!

[he pauses, getting quieter again.]

You know that you're my friend, at least, right?

[knaval]

[sorry, bee, no-one ever taught him healthy coping mechanisms.

at the question, though, he nods his head up and down slowly.]

Yeah. Sorry, Bee, I just... I thought I did some messed up stuff during the war but this is just-- sick.

[can't stop won't stop doesn't know how to stop.]

[heelys]

[Bumblebee slams his hand against one of Riptide's cheeks out of frustration, hoping it'll snap him out of it.]

You didn't do it yet!! You can't let what might've happened fill your spark! You can't think about the maybes or what ifs--You'll go crazy!

[He makes a frustrated vent and leans forward again to lean against Riptide's forehead.]

C'mon, Rip. You're... You're freaking me out. You know that's not something you'd do.

[knaval]

I'm not taking this as a maybe or a what if. You learn not to bother with that after fighting for so long, but this is something I know must've happened.

[he shakes his head.]

I can't tell you what you want to hear. This is life, people turn out to be terrible sometimes.

[heelys]

[Bumblebee sits up again, optics paling and tanks clenching. He doesn't know what to do, how to make things better. And now Riptide is saying that he's a bad guy, that he's done terrible things and can never be forgiven. But wasn't that half the Cybertronian's on this ship? Starscream wasn't a complete asshole, Megatron was trying to atone for his sins and--hell--even Whirl was being nice to him. Sort of.]

You can't be serious! [he looks like he's about to cry.] You can't believe that! Or else--why are you so upset about it?! If you think it's a choice you purposely made, you wouldn't be like this!

[Hes grabbing at straws now.] Would you give me to Tarn? Huh?! Do I need to start watching my back?

[knaval]

Because Magnus said he saw me there, with Getaway. Somehow the fragger did something that convinced me to take part.

[he sighs, too exhausted to be offended.]

No, Bee. It's not like that.

[heelys]

How is it any different? [He's retreating in on himself, looking small.]

[knaval]

You'd know if you were on the Lost Light. It wasn't just out of the blue.

[heelys]

[Bumblebee goes quiet again, leaning away from Riptide's faceplate so he's sitting against the opposite wall.]

So, that's it, huh? Anything I say to you doesn't matter. It doesn't matter that you're my friend and that you're the only thing making me feel not completely abandoned here? Doesn't that count for anything?

[knaval]

[riptide blinks a little at the words that finally seem to sink in.

little yellow light strands starting bubbling at the corners of his optics and he pulls bee in suddenly.]

M'sorry, Bee. It's just really hard to deal with all this right now. You're still my friend, okay? I'm sorry for upsetting you.

[heelys]

[Oh. He hadn't meant to make Riptide leak. But--sometimes that's actually a good thing, right? Sari felt better after she cried and talked about things. Maybe he just needed to unload. Yeah!

Bumblebee only gives a small yelp as he's pulled close, quickly shifting in the huge grip so he can hug onto Riptide's faceplate again, not caring about getting the weird tears on him.]

It's--it's okay Rip. I'm just. [he pauses, frowning at himself before clinging tighter.] You're still my friend, too. You're a good guy. Even if you don't think so right now. Okay? You're okay.

[knaval]

[riptide says nothing, just presses his face into bee a little harder and trembling slightly from the effort of not making too much noise.]

[heelys]

[Bumblebee gives him as much time as he needs, holding onto him as well as he can with the size difference. he's trying to not let on how upset he is too..]

It's okay, dude. It's okay.