Cúrre (
hownkai) wrote in
thisavrou_log2016-02-15 11:56 pm
( february event log )
Who: Everyone
When: February 16th and on
Where: Throughout the Moira
What: After an exhausting month and a half, the crew tries to relax.
Warnings: Please label accordingly!
( OOC: Please label any material with content warnings. All events are dated for those that need them, but you don’t have to wait until those dates OOCly to do the prompts. For questions, go here! )
When: February 16th and on
Where: Throughout the Moira
What: After an exhausting month and a half, the crew tries to relax.
Warnings: Please label accordingly!
E V E N T |
"Sometimes, the thing that brings us together also pulls us apart. "
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"It's incredible. It reminds me of Barrayaran offerings, in away. Letting go of something."
She takes his hand. Is it overfamiliar? Technically, she only just met him. But he's her son, damn it. Cordelia gives Miles's hand a resolute squeeze.
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"But it is a form of letting go, I suppose." His eyes search the slowly billowing cloud of lanterns, looking past his faint reflection in the glass. He wonders if it would be cruel to tell her about Bothari. Right now, surely. He feels she'll have to know eventually, but that story comes with so many others, some Miles isn't really prepared to tell her. Some he doesn't know how to tell her. No, now isn't the time. He has his own consolations. Bothari's coat, another mysterious gift of the Ingress, is still neatly folded and tucked away in a drawer in their cabin. "Or...reaching out, you might say."
The touch isn't overfamiliar at all. Miles smiles a little more, almost shyly -- an odd look on him -- and squeezes her hand back. Cordelia, Betan as she is, has always been so much more inclined to physical affection than most Barrayarans generally are, and Miles takes more after his father in that regard, but she's his mother. And if he's honest with himself, she's one of the people he's been missing the most. This isn't the same thing as being off-planet for months at a time on a job. He's been homesick, for the Dendarii and Barrayar both. After a moment, Miles lets out a little breath and tips his head to the side to rest it lightly against his mother's arm.
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Miles leaning his head against her breaks her reverie, and Cordelia looks down at him. Every time she sees him she's amazed at how far he's come. She must remember to get Vaagen his own lab.
Cordelia slips her arm around Miles and gives him a squeeze. She's just beginning to get used to how solid and healthy he is. Don't, she reminds herself. You're here together now, but soon you'll go back, where everything is only just beginning. If only Aral were here.
"You know, I'm almost happy to be here. Nobody is trying to assassinate anyone, you aren't kidnapped, Gregor is safe- if only I could summon Aral. And Simon, and Kou and Drou and Bothari and Elena-- are you friends with Elena? I'd hoped you two would grow up together, you know."
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"I think Illyan would have a fit the second he set foot on this ship," Miles murmurs, eyes glimmering with distant amusement. "Security here's a mess, he'd probably have an aneurysm..."
At the mention of Elena he blinks up at her, then smiles. "Oh, yes -- we did grow up together, mostly, along with Ivan. I'm pleased to say you had a tremendous influence on her. But she, ah, left Barrayar some years ago. Just as soon as she could. We still keep in touch, though, of course."
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"I'd hoped that by the time you were in your teens, things would be easier." For women (and the disabled and the poor and anyone who wasn't a big strong Vor boy), she means. "Barrayar is hurtling along at breakneck speed and simultaneously progressing achingly slowly. I suppose change will just keep on flooding in. I don't blame Elena for not being able to wait."
Cordelia thinks of general Piotr, who lead the march of modernity and has now been thoroughly overtaken, living in a world he helped to create but no longer fits into. Did he ever get used to Miles? Accept the facts and try to build a relationship with his grandson, or was Miles still a non-person to him, an embarrassment to be quietly put down behind closed curtains? Does Miles even know his grandfather tried to murder him?
"Did... did you ever know your grandfather?" Her tone is very careful, like she's tiptoeing around land mines. If she and Aral ended up deciding not to tell Miles about all that nonsense, who is she to go back (forward?) on that decision now, after all.
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Miles almost wishes Elena were here, just so Cordelia could meet her. He's certain his mother would be proud. He glances up at that question, his interest piqued more by her tone than the words. An ironic smile pulls at his lips.
"Oh, yes. For quite some time, actually. Grandfather didn't pass away until I was seventeen. I'm twenty-five, now," he adds, because he's not sure he ever did specify his age. God knows it's not easy to tell just by looking. He feels just the faintest twinge in his chest to think of his grandfather. Even now, he still can't help but feel that it was he who killed his grandfather. Death by disappointment... Miles waves a hand in order to assuage any immediate concerns of his mother's about needing to hedge around the subject.
"Don't worry, I know all about the abortion argument, what he tried to do. Why I don't have his name." He shrugs. He's decided his mother doesn't really need to hear about the postpartum attempt on his life just now. Later, he thinks. "He did come around eventually -- over horses, of all things. He and I never really quite saw eye-to-eye, I don't think we could have, and there were things he never really could understand. But I think he did love me, in his own way, and I learned just as much from him as I did from you and Dad. Painful lessons, some of them, but I don't wish them undone." He smiles faintly. "Well, you know Grandfather. He was a stubborn son of a bitch right up until the end."