thisavrou_log | Papa was a rolling stone

Who: Erik Lehnsherr, Wanda Maximoff, Peter Maximoff, Rogue, Clara Oswald, Diana Prince, Charles Xavier
When: The month of December, very carefully planned that none of these are happening at the same time (he has a color-coded calendar)
Where: Various places around the station, see prompts.
What: Erik's personal life is a disaster that I am attempting to contain in one place. This log is for the various dates he has lined up, as well as spending time with his children. And fighting a demon with Charles.
Warnings: Not expecting any, will edit to include warnings if something happens.

I never got a chance to see him (Closed to Wanda)

[ It takes Erik a few days to recover from the shock of Peter's revelation. One thing he definitely needs to do is talk to Wanda. Her odd behavior, and strong reaction when he so grievously misinterpreted the cause, now made sense.

There were still murky waters to navigate. The fact that she had her own parents, even though Peter was his son and Peter's sister was Erik's daughter. That apparently her brother is not here. That there is some sort of dimensional shift that has changed things for her in ways Erik does not quite understand.

He wants too, though. Try to define the strange situation that has tied them together. It is perhaps a selfish impulse, though he is sure that if she tells him to leave her alone, he will do so. And so he goes looking for her, starting in the library because he had heard she might be there. ]

Never heard nothin' but bad things about him (closed to Peter)

[ One thing is clear, Peter needs to know more about Erik's side of the family. Possibly also his mother, as Erik is certain that she has not told Peter the truth about how or when they met.

But the more important thing is to tell him about his family, all that they have lost. The legacy only lives so long as there is somebody to remember it. And now there will be, once Erik is gone.

He goes to Peter's quarters, at a time they both agreed on, with a hard copy of information that he wants Peter to have, and the intention of not getting sidetracked. And the locket. Because the first thing he needs to tell him about is his sister. ]

Papa never was much on thinking (closed to Rogue)

[ Erik is still not sure whether or not this is a mistake. He knows his intentions are good. It has occurred to him that much of what he finds interesting in Rogue is what attracted him to Raven. And becoming physically intimate with Raven was a mistake, one he will not repeat. Clearly Rogue is searching for some kind of mentor, and if Erik can serve in that role, and serve as a voice of reason against whatever it is that Charles is teaching her, all the better.

They are meeting in his quarters, of course. He's not interested in dealing with the inevitable wild rumors that would spring up the instant any of the others saw them interacting. He's done what he can to make sure the lighting is comfortable but not in a way that could be described as "mood lighting". He has a pitcher of what he has been assured is a decent approximation of "sweet tea" in the refrigerator. He is not sure what Rogue intends to prepare, but he expects the tea will go well with it. As well as sweet tea goes with anything, anyway. ]

Spent most of his time chasing women and drinking (closed to Clara)

[ The truth of the matter is that risotto is not as difficult to make as it appears. The trick is to just keep stirring it, and most do not have the patience for it.

Erik is a patient man.

He's left the door open so that Clara can come in without him having to leave the stove. Along with the ingredients he's using, he was able to obtain a few new articles of clothing. A sweater, one that actually fits him and not Charles, in a nice dark maroon. A grey broadcloth shirt underneath, and khaki pants. And an apron over that at the moment, as he is not going to ruin his new clothes.

He hums quietly as he adds a ladle of stock to the rice and stirs vigorously. ]

I'm depending on you to tell me the truth (closed to Diana)

[ Erik didn't bring a chessboard with him, of course. He made one shortly after arrival. Inlaying different alloys to make the checkered pattern, forming various bits of scrap metal into the right color and a shape that he liked. He hadn't actually had time or opportunity to play anybody in the two months since he arrived, and so he is looking forward to teaching Diana.

She is an intelligent woman, and a strategic thinker. Once she picks up the basics he is certain she will quickly become a worthy opponent. He has set the board up in the greenery, on a small table with two chairs that probably wasn't intended to be used like a bistro set in the park. But it's peaceful there, and it is nice to be around the plants.

And if the taskbots get out of hand he can always just stick them to the floor until the cavalry arrives. ]

and that ain't right (closed to Charles)

[ The thing rattles inside the locker. Erik glares back at it, hand up, fingers splayed, keeping the door in place and a flashlight shining directly on it. He's not sure exactly what part of this setup is keeping it in place, so he keeps it all in place.

He flicks on the video call feature on his A.C.E. ]

Call Charles.

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[She understands his reasoning, and is embarrassed because she knows about his wife and daughter and she still wants him. Despite what she wants, Clara isn't entirely selfish. She can't ask him to really, actually be with her so soon after losing them. It wouldn't be right.

It's healthy for them to talk this way, to get things out in the open and clear the air.

And now she's faced with a decision to make. She looks over at him for what feels like a long while before her hand reaches out to try and take hold of his.]

It'll do, for now.

[A sad smile tugs up at the corners of her mouth, but she isn't really feeling all that sorry for herself. She feels a sense of relief, although the ache that comes along with being denied by the Doctor and now Erik in such a short period of time is still too fresh to discard completely. But she'll move on past it, same as she does everything else. And really, what she and Erik have now is special to her, even if it isn't exclusive. It's enough for the time being.]

I've never been keen on labels, anyway.

[ This whole thing has been a fantasy. From the moment he held her on the ledge until now. He has ignored the reality of his situation, distracted himself with sex and a shallow imitation of the kind of relationship Clara obviously wants. And deserves. A relationship with somebody who has an entire heart to give her. Not one half dead, the other half calcified.

He takes her hand and squeezes her fingers. ]

The benefit of labels is that one knows what is expected. I don't know what you expect of me, now.

[ Other than his complete inability to live up to her actual desires. ]

I want...

[She gives his hand a little squeeze, keeping a sad smile on her face.]

What I want is, something more than a distraction. For the both of us.

[She's not stupid, she knows that this all started on an extreme and then just continued. It was strictly physical at first, but now it isn't at all for her. She cares for him a great deal, and he's part of her life here. She doesn't want to lose that, not yet.]

I brought up our argument as a means to saying I wanted things to be exclusive between us. It didn't have to be anything more than just that, but -

[She isn't sure he'd go for that, not now. So she leaves it there and just shrugs a little.]

[ Clara is a beautiful woman, with a smile that lights up a room. When she's happy. Now, that smile is dimmed, considerably, by how thoroughly he has disappointed her. ]

I don't know what I want.

[ He says softly. Which isn't entirely true. He wants things he can't have. His wife. Charles. To be with Clara without the weight of those losses crushing him. None of this is remotely fair to her.

He's so lost in his melancholy that he doesn't quite understand what she's saying. ]

And you don't want that anymore.

[ That makes sense, considering her earlier statement. Though he understood it the first time, he isn't quite sure why she feels the need to repeat herself. ]

I didn't say that.

[She gently points out, giving a shake of her head. ]

I assumed that you didn't want something exclusive. I still do.

[But he's just said that he doesn't know what he wants, and it isn't fair of her to push and keep the matter going when she's already ruined a perfectly good dinner. She wants to be with him, but she also can't let herself be a rebound or let herself play second fiddle to the ghost of another woman. She had told the Doctor she wouldn't compete with ghosts, but the need to say the same to Erik isn't there. It feels like too cruel of a thought, so she leaves things where they are and tosses the ball in his court.

Whatever happens needs to be his decision.]

You just said that I was never going to be your boyfriend.

[ He thought he understood the words she was saying. It seemed very clear to him when she was saying them what she meant, and yet she is very certain that what he thought just happened did not happen.

Maybe the language around relationships changed over time. He rubs his forehead and tries to recount the steps they took to get here. ]

So the issue of labels aside, you want our relationship to be monogamous, is that correct? Are there other things you want or is that the crux of it?

I said that you weren't ever going to be my boyfriend because I didn't want to look pathetic, since I assumed you never wanted to be. I made so many mistakes in my last relationship by not telling him how I felt or what I wanted in time. I don't want to ever do that again. But I also don't want to embarrass myself by being the only one who wants something, 'specially when you've just said you don't know what you want. So -

[She hesitates, but forces herself to just say it.]

So yeah, that's basically what I want. Monogamy.

[She looks so painfully vulnerable as she admits it, and realizes just how much she loathes putting herself out there. Her teeth briefly press against her lower lip as she keeps herself quiet, because she can feel her mouth wanting to run. This isn't the best time for it to have a mind of its own, really.]

[ He regards her quietly for a moment. He finishes his glass of wine and then pushes his chair back from the table a little. He lifts his arm and beckons with his fingers. ]

Come here, please.

[She watches him for a moment before pushing her chair back to stand. It's not as if she's all that far from him sitting where she is, but she still goes to him. Her eyebrow arches, curious and silently asking him where he's going with this.]

[ He takes her hand and kisses it, and then draws her closer, inviting her to sit on his lap. It's one of the nicer things about her being so much shorter than him, and he feels a need to be close to her right now. ]

Clara. I know this relationship began on a rather shallow foot. [ He tucks a lock of hair behind her ear. ] And while I do find you exceptionally physically attractive, I also am quite fond of you. And it's nice to know that you are fond of me as well. So yes, it is fine if this relationship is monogamous.

[ He looks at her a moment. She's so lovely. And smart and confident with a vicious sense of humor. ] I'm sorry I can't offer you more than that.

[It doesn't ever surprise her when he's affectionate, because he often is with her. But in this case, she's pleasantly surprised. Sitting on his lap and hearing what he has to say makes her smile enough that she's certain her annoying little dimples are showing, and she doesn't care how happy she looks in that second. She doesn't have to hide anything right now.

Turning a little, her hand cups his cheek as she leans in to kiss him. It's slow and sweet and more than a little drawn out, but as ever she's the boss as she controls the intensity and how long it takes before she pulls back and away.]

Keeping things exclusive's more than enough. I'm happy with this. Happier than I've been in a really long time.

[ He eases into the kiss, content to let her guide him the way she wants. He gets the impression that she's pleased with what he's said before she actually confirms it. He smiles at her once she breaks the kiss, though there's a shadow to it. ]

So long as that's still true, then.

Papa was a rolling stone

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