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( december event log )
Who: Everyone
When: December 17th and on
Where: Throughout the Moira
What: The reasons for power failure become a little clearer...
Warnings: Possible character death. Please label anything you do that needs a warning.
When: December 17th and on
Where: Throughout the Moira
What: The reasons for power failure become a little clearer...
Warnings: Possible character death. Please label anything you do that needs a warning.
E V E N T |
"A thousand fibers connect us, and our actions run as causes, comimg back to us as effects."
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[It's more complicated than it seems though, and as much as she tells herself there's nothing more for them to give her, it's still never been alright. And she has no idea what would make it alright.]
I begged them to stop-- I was awake during it, no anesthesia, I wasn't even sterilized beforehand. [She's angry, that much is clear by the way her voice takes on a darker edge with every detail. What to do with that anger, though, she apparently still hasn't figured out.]
When I saw you flying around, I understood why you hadn't said anything. That happened to me because they were all scared, and nothing I could have said would have ever made them less afraid. It was so painful, I swore up and down that I would do whatever they wanted me to do, that I would obey if they would just stop... They broke me to feel safe.
...And the only reasons I ended up on that table were that I wasn't physically strong enough to stop them, and I hadn't been hurt enough to understand they wouldn't stop unless I made them stop.
[Which is how the operating theater had experienced a sudden tornado. When Elizabeth finally looks up at Clark, she is far from the optimistic and curious girl he sees visiting him in the gardens. She's on the verge of injured and desperate wild animal.]
Can we leave? I want to go back to my room now.
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Elizabeth is the same kind-hearted person who would visit him in the garden, who had put her life in danger to help civilians during the fight, but whoever had done this to her couldn't even see her as a person at all. They didn't care. Her power was terrifying and out of their control.
...they wouldn't stop unless I made them stop. Elizabeth is right. She understands better than anyone why he never said anything, why he still keeps his abilities to himself. But maybe that means that he understands some of what she's lived through, too. ]
I'm sorry. [ For what she's gone through, and what she's had to do. For what they took. ] It doesn't change as much as you wish it did, does it? [ Said like someone who's been in the same place. ] You've still got to live with the memory and deal with all of the anger, and the frustration, and the hurt. I don't know if that ever really goes away but... At least while you're here, you'll never have to deal with it alone.
[ He holds out a hand to help her up if she needs it. ] Let's go, I'll walk you back.
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[Elizabeth takes his hand and slides off the bed. She feels exhausted, but not as unsteady on her feet as she had been earlier. As they walk out of the medbay, Elizabeth doesn't say anything, but she is gripping Clark's hand as tightly as she can in an effort not to cry. She's still crying, though it is, at least, silent.]
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Once they're inside, he tries to pull her gently into a hug. If she pulls away, he won't try to insist, but she looks like she could use one right about now. ]