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Darin Altway ([personal profile] forgeabettertomorrow) wrote in [community profile] thisavrou_log2017-04-09 11:39 pm

Procrastinating and Not Solving My Problems | Open to All

Who: Darin Altway and anyone who wants to join!
When: On especially clear nights throughout the month!
Where: Kauto, Region 5
What: Stargazing! Introspection! Relaxation! Bonding! Hilarity!

[Life had been decidedly quiet for Darin in the last month and a half. After that tumultuous mission with Shiro and the ensuing fallout, things had returned to be as peaceful as they could possibly be on an alien world. It was as close to feeling like 'home' as it could while not actively being the same.]

[Perhaps it was this longing for 'home' that found Darin on top of a grassy hill, sprawled out on his back and gazing up at the night sky. Back home, he would do this often when he had to turn his thoughts inward. He would gaze up at the twin moons of his world, one perpetually almost eclipsing the other, and think about his place in that world.]

[He found himself doing the same thing now, but instead of wondering what his place was, he was wondering what he could do to protect it. The laboratory on Asteroid 276 presented a path: a chance to limit himself and his abilities, thereby protecting everyone he had come to know and love in this world. But what would that mean for him if he was ever sent back to his real home? On the other hand...if he chose to keep himself limit free, where did he start in gaining mastery over himself? Dromas had been taught to use his powers. The power gap between them was like comparing an ocean to a babbling brook. How could he even begin to learn something about which he had no previous desire to know?]

[He sighs and reaches into a holster on his hip, drawing forth the tablet that Lucio had given him. He points it up towards the star-filled sky and begins opening window after window: star charts he'd taken from the Hub and meticulously recreated as images in the tablet. He starts moving the images around with his hands, trying to find matches among this night's tapestry. He didn't really expect to find his home...or anything in particular. But, it kept his mind busy. Kept its gears turning. Who knows...maybe he'd find an answer tonight?]
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-29 01:44 am (UTC)(link)
Diomuhr. He should know.
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-30 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
What, has that happened before?

And how do you know you can't turn it around on him? Get him to relinquish control?
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-30 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
[The weight hangs there for a moment. When she speaks again, her tone has become a shade gentler.]

I'm not trying to badger you into anything foolhardy, either. I'm trying to figure out why the other options can't be explored, rather than simply... accepting this.

Because I find it far easier to believe that you do have a demon lord's soul trapped inside of you -- than the idea that you should simply give up and accept your problems for what they are.

It goes against all the things I was raised to believe. And it goes against the image I have of you, too.
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-30 05:01 am (UTC)(link)
Because you don't want us to help you?
patchricide: (Evidently that's too much to hope for)

[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-31 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
You know, I always suspected that was why Shiro is so close-lipped about his problems.
patchricide: (I never authorized this.)

[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-31 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
That it's "easier", supposedly. To take on those problems alone and accept the consequences alone.

Like you're doing, right now.

You're acting like Shiro if he was possessed by a demon lord.
patchricide: (You became the moon?)

[personal profile] patchricide 2017-05-31 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
'Selfish'...?

[She looks the slightest bit taken aback. As much as it was frustrating to see someone else do it, she was just as much guilty of it as the others -- she could sympathize with the sentiments. Wanting to take care of yourself, so no one else would have to sacrifice on your behalf.]

[The frustrating part was that many times, they couldn't handle that task on their own. And so not reaching out for help was delaying action, and shouldering nothing.]

[(She, on the other hand, can shoulder her own problems and everyone else's.)]


What's so selfish about it? It's not your pride bothering you about it, is it...?
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-06-17 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[She stares at him. Not really accepting or angry -- just in disbelief, with a hint of incredulity.]

You can't actually be serious about that. Can you?

['Selfish'. That is his idea of selfish. Not having to deal with losing someone. Again.]

You'd rather give up everything so you have nothing remaining to lose? Is that -- is it actually less sad or painful? Because it seems to me that you're merely dragging it out!
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-06-17 10:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[That should aggravate her a lot more than it does.]

[But there's an oddly charming quality to it. The same thing that makes her look at the paladins -- and all their oddities and weaknesses -- and think that they really could save the universe one day. In spite of their flaws, or perhaps even because of them.]


... all right, then.

But you realize that if you falter, there's almost nothing you can say or do to stop the rest of us from helping you.

So... stand strong, won't you?
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-06-19 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
We'll be very sad and might not forgive you?

[It's a joke. Sort of.]
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-06-19 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
Of course. However...

[True to the conversation, she gives a pleasant smile.]

You won't be too upset if we try to protect yours, will you?
patchricide: (That's adorable.)

[personal profile] patchricide 2017-06-20 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
What I want?

[That brings her back, briefly, to earlier in the conversation.]

You already know. What I originally wanted was to hear the stories from your world.
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[personal profile] patchricide 2017-06-24 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
[She looks at him, then up at the sky.]

With the stars, of course.

[And then back at him.]

"People have been waxing poetic about the heavens for centuries." "Legends and stories and all kinds of things." That's what you said, isn't it?

Besides, I don't know if you ever might have guessed this, but the stars mean quite a lot to me.