Then die tomorrow, it doesn't have to be today. Even better, die the day after that.

[Because each day buys them some time, and maybe a chance at a better future. Nick does believe it can change, it just takes some figuring out. He has strong suspicions, but no solutions yet. So he saves the crazy stuff.]

Look, if I thought doing this would get Cassie safely home again, I'd already be at their doors. But chances are it would just get me taken away from her for good. And then what happens to her?

[It bothers him, and Nick realizes right then that he needs to start working on his trust issues again, find someone he'd feel okay with asking to watch out for her if something did happen. But he doesn't have anyone like that yet.]

It's the same, man. You're still needed around here. God only knows what kind of roommate I'd end up with next.