[Pregnant. Oh. Oh, he's missed everything. Missed everything important and still it ends like this. How is this right? How is this fair?]
What have I done?
[It's not an honest question, nor one he really even notices outside an exclamation of dismay. How has he ruined this much? He buries his face in her shoulder, a stark contrast to how much he knows he should walk away.
He's known for some time now that Padmé had been just as much an absent figure in their childrens' lives as he had, but he'd never imagined it like this.
...And what if that's his fault too?
There are times he'd used to tell himself he could quell emotion the way the Jedi wanted, that crying was a weakness no one would ever see. This whole affair seems to reduce him to weeping with little provocation. Just one thing on a long list of how terrible a Jedi he really is.]
She's...so angry. [He only offers this when he's able to take in a breath without it shaking. The tears he doesn't care about; Padmé's seen enough of them by now, more than he should have ever subjected her to. Perhaps it is a hypocrisy to call his daughter on her fury when this has been Obi-Wan's harshest criticism of him too, but right now, it's about the sole defining feature of their relationship.] Leia. All these things I'm supposed to do, what she remembers.
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[Pregnant. Oh. Oh, he's missed everything. Missed everything important and still it ends like this. How is this right? How is this fair?]
What have I done?
[It's not an honest question, nor one he really even notices outside an exclamation of dismay. How has he ruined this much? He buries his face in her shoulder, a stark contrast to how much he knows he should walk away.
He's known for some time now that Padmé had been just as much an absent figure in their childrens' lives as he had, but he'd never imagined it like this.
...And what if that's his fault too?
There are times he'd used to tell himself he could quell emotion the way the Jedi wanted, that crying was a weakness no one would ever see. This whole affair seems to reduce him to weeping with little provocation. Just one thing on a long list of how terrible a Jedi he really is.]
She's...so angry. [He only offers this when he's able to take in a breath without it shaking. The tears he doesn't care about; Padmé's seen enough of them by now, more than he should have ever subjected her to. Perhaps it is a hypocrisy to call his daughter on her fury when this has been Obi-Wan's harshest criticism of him too, but right now, it's about the sole defining feature of their relationship.] Leia. All these things I'm supposed to do, what she remembers.
I don't know what to do.