One of the doors in the hallway is ajar and there's music music playing inside. All the lights are turned on and J's there, right in middle of the room as she dances all by herself, her lips moving silently along the song that's coming from a small portable vinyl player. Up until now, she's harshly dismissed and looked down at lip-syncing. She's always used her own voice and practised singing and dancing ever since being a young child. Although, due to her condition she hasn't been able to do her own singing for a while.
There had been months when she had even avoided touching her vinyls and records as they reminded her from something she could perhaps never do again, leaving her feel bitter and hurt. But now, due the all events and horrible experiences she, and everyone else, had gone through during the past month, she simply needed the comfort and escape from the present. The invasion and massacre of Caducans,w Witnessing deaths and killing someone herself. The violence and abuse she went through at the Runoff, forced to face the death and murder once again. And then Rinzler.
She wanted to forget about all of those but she couldn't escape from the nightmares, not even when awake, and they kept playing in her mind -- leaving her no option than turn back to Marilyn, drown herself into her.
Her eyes were shut as she let the music and the voice take her away. Her movements are fluid and smooth as she remembers each beat, step and turn -- it's almost as if there had never been a break of any kind! She might not be wearing a fancy dress or have any make up on her face as she dances inside the tiny room, but in her mind she can feel the warmth of stage lights hitting her and hear the crowd cheering at her. Just like back at New York.
However, she's brought back to the present by sharp snap sound coming from outside of the room, making her eyes open wide and stop on her tracks. There's a brief moment when all she can feel is panic and fear, freezing her still as she stares at the door. But those feelings are quickly replaced with annoyance and frustration that are directed both at herself, for getting scared so easily again, and the sound that dared to interrupt her! So, with rather hesitant steps she moves towards the door and pushes it wide open to see what was happening in the hallway.
random hallway, random room. HOPE THIS OK?
There had been months when she had even avoided touching her vinyls and records as they reminded her from something she could perhaps never do again, leaving her feel bitter and hurt. But now, due the all events and horrible experiences she, and everyone else, had gone through during the past month, she simply needed the comfort and escape from the present. The invasion and massacre of Caducans,w Witnessing deaths and killing someone herself. The violence and abuse she went through at the Runoff, forced to face the death and murder once again. And then Rinzler.
She wanted to forget about all of those but she couldn't escape from the nightmares, not even when awake, and they kept playing in her mind -- leaving her no option than turn back to Marilyn, drown herself into her.
Her eyes were shut as she let the music and the voice take her away. Her movements are fluid and smooth as she remembers each beat, step and turn -- it's almost as if there had never been a break of any kind! She might not be wearing a fancy dress or have any make up on her face as she dances inside the tiny room, but in her mind she can feel the warmth of stage lights hitting her and hear the crowd cheering at her. Just like back at New York.
However, she's brought back to the present by sharp snap sound coming from outside of the room, making her eyes open wide and stop on her tracks. There's a brief moment when all she can feel is panic and fear, freezing her still as she stares at the door. But those feelings are quickly replaced with annoyance and frustration that are directed both at herself, for getting scared so easily again, and the sound that dared to interrupt her! So, with rather hesitant steps she moves towards the door and pushes it wide open to see what was happening in the hallway.