"Don't." She said it before she could stop herself, before she had even started to think about if maybe distance was the best thing. "Don't go, I..."
She didn't know what she wanted. But not for him to leave.
"Look, I..." She usually found talking about the way she felt so easy, but now the words eluded her. "I've been telling myself all this time that we'd get through this, whatever happened. That we'd get away from the CDC, and then we'll get away from this too. I know it's not going to happen." It's the first time she's said it, and her voice is weighed down in the admission. "But I needed it." No. "I need it.
"I don't know how to..." Keep going without that hope. Niko had somehow learned to go on without it. She'd clung on this whole time because she didn't know how not to.
"I don't know how I'd do this without you." She had never been good at doing anything alone, not really, but this? It came out like a plea.
Niko could appreciate what he had while he had it. Tali wanted to clutch everything she had to her and never let go.
"That's the really selfish thing," she mumbled, barely sure he could hear her, looking at the floor. "I can't heal you," and at the word 'heal' she glanced up at him. She wasn't sure he knew the impact of that word - broken, the way he used it like talking about something that didn't even matter - but it stung hard, "but I need you holding me together."
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She didn't know what she wanted. But not for him to leave.
"Look, I..." She usually found talking about the way she felt so easy, but now the words eluded her. "I've been telling myself all this time that we'd get through this, whatever happened. That we'd get away from the CDC, and then we'll get away from this too. I know it's not going to happen." It's the first time she's said it, and her voice is weighed down in the admission. "But I needed it." No. "I need it.
"I don't know how to..." Keep going without that hope. Niko had somehow learned to go on without it. She'd clung on this whole time because she didn't know how not to.
"I don't know how I'd do this without you." She had never been good at doing anything alone, not really, but this? It came out like a plea.
Niko could appreciate what he had while he had it. Tali wanted to clutch everything she had to her and never let go.
"That's the really selfish thing," she mumbled, barely sure he could hear her, looking at the floor. "I can't heal you," and at the word 'heal' she glanced up at him. She wasn't sure he knew the impact of that word - broken, the way he used it like talking about something that didn't even matter - but it stung hard, "but I need you holding me together."