I doubt that. They'd already fucked me up, they couldn't possibly do worse.
[And yet they could have, and he knows it. That's why he'd run. He doesn't remember the decision itself, the thoughts that led to it--only the image of Chara falling, and them advancing, and the fear. And then he was elsewhere, and in its place there was shame.
But that just proves his point, doesn't it? Better him than them. Better the coward who would save his own skin over a child.
He's trying not to think like this anymore. He's trying. But the universe keeps throwing arguments to the contrary back in his face.
And if he doesn't dwell, if he can't figure out what he did wrong, how can he do better in the future?]
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I doubt that. They'd already fucked me up, they couldn't possibly do worse.
[And yet they could have, and he knows it. That's why he'd run. He doesn't remember the decision itself, the thoughts that led to it--only the image of Chara falling, and them advancing, and the fear. And then he was elsewhere, and in its place there was shame.
But that just proves his point, doesn't it? Better him than them. Better the coward who would save his own skin over a child.
He's trying not to think like this anymore. He's trying. But the universe keeps throwing arguments to the contrary back in his face.
And if he doesn't dwell, if he can't figure out what he did wrong, how can he do better in the future?]