I doubt that would have made any of it easier, or better, where either of us are concerned.

[Why bother with shoulds and should nots? It is the same reason they do not bother with apologies. There is no altering that which has been stitched into place. Perhaps, in another timeline adjacent to this one, they could have spun back the clock and timed every choice perfect, and gotten as many second chances that are possible.]

[But, no. That is not their talent, nor is it their prerogative. Good children get second chances.]

[Not bad ones.]

Like it or not, there is no changing that now.