[It's too selfish, is what he wants to say. Is what he almost automatically says to them. But -- no. That isn't totally true, not anymore, is it?]

... it's easier for me to start with them. With my friends, family.

If I do that long enough. I'm hoping I can work my way up to me.

[A shake of his head, a hollow, exhausted laugh.]

That probably doesn't make any sense, does it?