I am considering myself. And... I know that what I want... isn't going to always be the right thing.
[What he wants may not help. What he wants -- Allura's hand in his, Diana's arms around him, Maine's lips, Lucio's eyes are warm and deep, North's smile is genuine, the team in a house in safety laughing talking like everything is fine, Matt laughing -- isn't always something he's going to be able to have. May not be something possible, or something that will, ultimately, help.]
[It isn't fair, to do what he wants. When things like Shay's people in the sun for the first time, freeing prisoners unjustly held, fighting, stopping encroaching darkness -- Chara's comfort are more important.]
[He is something other than himself, now. And there's no going back.]
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[What he wants may not help. What he wants -- Allura's hand in his, Diana's arms around him, Maine's lips, Lucio's eyes are warm and deep, North's smile is genuine, the team in a house in safety laughing talking like everything is fine, Matt laughing -- isn't always something he's going to be able to have. May not be something possible, or something that will, ultimately, help.]
[It isn't fair, to do what he wants. When things like Shay's people in the sun for the first time, freeing prisoners unjustly held, fighting, stopping encroaching darkness -- Chara's comfort are more important.]
[He is something other than himself, now. And there's no going back.]
This is what I have to do. Comes with the job.