[He doesn't want it to be true. Doesn't want to lose him again. Tries to figure out a way he could have just went back to Thisavrou, but...]
No, he-- I'd know.
[It reminds him of back then, when he hadn't been able to mourn, had to keep up the illusion of being Miller for the mission, had to do his own things. had to be the leader.
He's not the leader now.]
But he's gone. He hasn't just... hasn't just found a way out. He'd tell me. He'd...
[But... it's not like when the kid version had gone home.]
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[He doesn't want it to be true. Doesn't want to lose him again. Tries to figure out a way he could have just went back to Thisavrou, but...]
No, he-- I'd know.
[It reminds him of back then, when he hadn't been able to mourn, had to keep up the illusion of being Miller for the mission, had to do his own things. had to be the leader.
He's not the leader now.]
But he's gone. He hasn't just... hasn't just found a way out. He'd tell me. He'd...
[But... it's not like when the kid version had gone home.]
He's dead back home!