[Declan doesn't know what he's doing either. Accusing Jesse, thanking him, probably both. Mainly just thanking him now though, he thinks. It's a whole back and forth situation and Jesse is right. At the base of it all, he's just pretty damn terrified.
He's never been so out of his depth before. Not even when he was thrown in thrown in the trunk of his father's car, or handcuffed and made to watch the shit people his father dealt with, ransacking his house, looking for dream things, looking for Ronan. He knew the drill back then. Now? He doesn't know shit.
He looks at Jesse, the anger that was there before, dissipated into something else entirely. Declan doesn't even know what, though. He just watches Jesse, his firm hands on his arms practically holding him up now.]
We've never been apart for this long. Even when we were fighting, we... [He starts, then stops, then shakes his head. A lot has definitely happened. He still feels like it's his own damn fault, but now they're here. He's here with Matthew and Ronan and he wishes his brother would realize that he's not alone anymore. ] Okay.... okay.
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He's never been so out of his depth before. Not even when he was thrown in thrown in the trunk of his father's car, or handcuffed and made to watch the shit people his father dealt with, ransacking his house, looking for dream things, looking for Ronan. He knew the drill back then. Now? He doesn't know shit.
He looks at Jesse, the anger that was there before, dissipated into something else entirely. Declan doesn't even know what, though. He just watches Jesse, his firm hands on his arms practically holding him up now.]
We've never been apart for this long. Even when we were fighting, we... [He starts, then stops, then shakes his head. A lot has definitely happened. He still feels like it's his own damn fault, but now they're here. He's here with Matthew and Ronan and he wishes his brother would realize that he's not alone anymore. ] Okay.... okay.