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january event log
Who: Everyone
When: January 3rd and on
Where: The Midway Hub.
What: The crew finally make it to the center of the Hub.
Warnings: Mentions of dead bodies, death, and violence. Please label your content!
When: January 3rd and on
Where: The Midway Hub.
What: The crew finally make it to the center of the Hub.
Warnings: Mentions of dead bodies, death, and violence. Please label your content!
E V E N T L O G |
"Let them in, and take them out."
|
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With a deep sigh and an equally troubled face of its typical age, he takes a seat beside his friend and idly watches him jot down notes for a few moments. Before he gets too intrusive, though, he turns his attention to his PacDisc and pulls out a pencil, which he extends in Varric's direction.]
I see you already found something to write with, but... Here. For when you run out of ink or charcoal or what have you.
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[He looked back down to his work, scratching out a few more things on the paper before letting out a deep sigh. His gaze drifted back up, meeting the golden stare from his companion. At first, he didn't even notice the item clutched in his hand. It was only after the mage spoke that his gaze fell once again.]
For me?
[Varric reached out, fingers brushing over the tip of the pencil before he paused.]
Don't you have some thousand-page mage rights speech to write?
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Believe me, I already have thousands. [Though he fails to mention that they're all crumpled up in the back of his clinic, and at any rate, very far away from here.
He shakes his head after a moment.] If I get the urge, I can always just prick my finger and write it in blood. That'll get them nice and properly riled up. I got it for you.
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[Better to not bring up negative things just yet.]
I appreciate it. I'll be sure to pen you into my acknowledgments.
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[He looks about as amused as Varric, however. His brows arch and he flicks his wrist to bring attention back to the writing utensil.]
My arm is getting terribly tired. Is something bothering you, Varric? [His tone should be enough to clarify that he already knows the answer to that, but sometimes it's best to make people think getting help is their choice. Especially the people in their merry little band.]
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Thanks, Blondie.
[There were a number of something's on his mind, some of which he didn't want to bring up, and others that he really didn't want to bring up. He sucked in a breath, held it, and then exhaled once more.]
They say that this thing might be able to take us home once it's fixed. Offer is on the table and all that.
Are you... going to go back to Kirkwall?
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Why wouldn't I? I have patients to tend to, mages to help out of the Circle. Our friends are there. [His brows knit together and his eyes fall with those last words. Perhaps he doesn't need to specify aloud that by now he's figured out that Hawke, his Hawke is still there, waiting if not given up entirely on him.]
I have a duty to all of them.
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[Cassandra had once made it a habit to call vapid and self-absorbed man, and maybe she was right. If he hadn't been caught up in himself, he could have noticed the signs sooner. Hell, even if he hadn't, maybe just a little more effort might have spared him.]
[He made a note to complain to the captains at some point in the near future. This blighted trip was making him feel things more often than he cared to.]
[But what was he supposed to say? He'd written books that drove women wild. He'd captivated audiences with his prose, and talked bandits down with his tongue. Yet in the face of losing a friend, all that seemed worthless.]
What if I asked you to stay?
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That doesn't mean, of course, he has to humor the dwarf on everything he has to suggest.]
Why in Thedas would you ask me that? I can't just abandon the people who need me. And just look around us. Do you honestly think I'm suited to this place? This is about as far out of our league as it gets.
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[But if Anders knew...]
It doesn't end well for you, Blondie. For any of us, really. [Well, maybe for Varric in a roundabout way. At least when he was plucked out of his time, he was blissfully drunk.]
[But then, out of everyone he'd lost the most in the end.]
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Is that it? [Another short laugh chokes its way out of him, still devoid of humor and somewhat telling of the fear and disappointment he's hiding.]
Do I give the impression that I expect to singlehandedly save the world and ride off into the sunset with my true love? I know the path I chose. I'm not turning from it now.
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[He managed neither.]
"Is that it?" [Varric's laugh was bitter.] You kill innocent people, blondie. Your "true love" [A scoff.] kills you in return.
Whatever Justice you wanted got left behind. You got so consumed by Vengeance that you let it destroy you.
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That does sound like it would make for a good story. [His words are a quiet, subdued rage, but his upset is obviously biting.]
Maybe you've seen more of my future than I have. And maybe you're from a place entirely different, where Hawke is a man, the Hero of Ferelden didn't die ending the Blight, and nugs fly around on butterfly wings. I am not lounging around here while newborns never get to feel their mothers' touch, Harrowed mages are made Tranquil against their will, and good, kind people like Bethany Hawke rot in glorified dungeons. If I destroy myself trying to stop any of that, I can die a fulfilled man.
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It doesn't stop with your death. Kirkwall falls, and with it go the rest of the Circles. Innocent mages die because Templars can't tell the difference between Apostate and bystander.
It doesn't take long for someone to sow the chaos. Hundreds more people die in the result. [Varric looked back, expression torn between hurt and anger.]
Hawke is one of them.
[Varric opened up the notebook, landing on the page that the new pencil had been tucked into. He grabbed it and held it back out to Anders.]
[Shame washed over the dwarf. He had trusted Anders, believed wholeheartedly that this younger man, the one that could laugh about Sebastian and other such jokes, might have had it in him to change his path.]
[But he'd been wrong.]
Two of my friends died for you. Kirkwall bled because of you. And you'd still do it all again. [Varric dropped the pencil at Anders feet.] Keep the damn thing. I don't need it.
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He rises as well, fists balled at his sides as he blatantly ignores the attempted return of his gift.]
Just who are you trying to fool? Templars already murder who they want, when they want, and they'll keep doing it as long as we allow them to. I don't want war, but if they wage it, there's nothing to do but fight back.
I'm not like you or anyone in Thedas, Varric. I can't just look after me and my own and forget about everyone else. Ignoring this would destroy me faster than acting on it. I'm sorry if you feel that's selfish of me.
[He doesn't want to walk away on this note, not after they'd seemed to mend what he now knows was the problem all along, but Anders can't see a way to fix it now. If Varric believes this is the only possible future for him, what can he possibly do to change his mind? So he just shakes his head and makes for somewhere, anywhere else.]
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[The dwarf had convinced himself that once, he and Anders were friends. It was obvious now how wrong he was. The thought seemed to cool the fire churning within his belly, leaving only a chill in his gut.]
[After a few moments of grumbling under his breath, Varric threw himself back into his seat. He glowered down at the previously discarded pencil, toying with the thought of throwing it far from him. Instead he picked it up and tucked it back into the notebook.]
[It wouldn't be long until he lost Anders again. He couldn't bear to part with the gift -- for all he knew, it would be the only thing to remember the mage by.]