[Adam's brow creases at the suggestion, that doesn't feel so much a suggestion. It felt like the morning after Ronan's birthday. That acknowledgement awakens yet another stone of guilt he carries. What if Ronan were to find out what he's hidden from him since he got here?
A part of Adam is worried that in a dream nothing would remain secret, that Ronan would see him all too plainly, how ugly he'd become inside, lying, hiding and harboring his feelings away from the other to try and protect him or more honestly because Adam didn't feel the right to them.
On a more practical level he worries about the dangers. What were they tapping into, really? Cabeswater had been a friend and that had been dangerous even not in dreamscape. It had always carried a danger for Adam and being that there were so many unknowns with this...
Adam finally gave the barest hints of a nod.]
We can try. [He hadn't scryed since that fateful morning. Could he even do it now, really?]
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A part of Adam is worried that in a dream nothing would remain secret, that Ronan would see him all too plainly, how ugly he'd become inside, lying, hiding and harboring his feelings away from the other to try and protect him or more honestly because Adam didn't feel the right to them.
On a more practical level he worries about the dangers. What were they tapping into, really? Cabeswater had been a friend and that had been dangerous even not in dreamscape. It had always carried a danger for Adam and being that there were so many unknowns with this...
Adam finally gave the barest hints of a nod.]
We can try. [He hadn't scryed since that fateful morning. Could he even do it now, really?]