No...Mettaton doesn't want to think about that. He didn't come here to be toyed with in exactly the same way as before.
He wouldn't let those words hurt! Not when he had been working so hard to try and make amends. Maybe it didn't come immediately to fruition, and maybe he was wasting his time. But better to waste it than to give up.
"I know what I did. I know, alright? I understand that I was not...the best to Alphys. Or to Blooky. Definitely not to Asriel. I realize that I have made mistakes..."
And most of all, he realizes that everything that Chara is saying is true, save for one thing.
"But what I also know is that it is never too late to put in the effort if someone is still there to talk to. There is nothing wrong with making a mistake and apologizing!!"
He says it vehemently, trying to ignore the shade of yellow outlining their SOUL. Alphys...he had never gotten the chance to express to her how sorry he was while she was here, and that hurt immensely. It almost overshadowed the fact that he'd been making amends back home already, before he came through the Ingress. Why, he'd even been doing some shopping for her--how could he ever trust her to eat anything but instant noodles and junk food?
That wasn't done out of a desire to throw their friendship away. It was...good. He had to be good, somewhere inside.
He had to believe that, because if he didn't, then why would Asriel want him as a friend now? Over and over, they'd had the discussion.
"If I gave up trying, I'd turn into a sad, pitiful monster with no regrets and all the regrets, hiding behind a wall of lights and sequins and telling myself I was doing everything right even if I knew that wasn't true." Oh, he remembers what he saw. He remembers how high his EXP climbed then, culling the miscreants who didn't submit to their king. Mettaton doesn't need Chara to guilt him there. "I don't want that for myself, so no matter what you say, I will continue doing what I do, and remembering all the mistakes--not to agonize! But to fix it!"
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He wouldn't let those words hurt! Not when he had been working so hard to try and make amends. Maybe it didn't come immediately to fruition, and maybe he was wasting his time. But better to waste it than to give up.
"I know what I did. I know, alright? I understand that I was not...the best to Alphys. Or to Blooky. Definitely not to Asriel. I realize that I have made mistakes..."
And most of all, he realizes that everything that Chara is saying is true, save for one thing.
"But what I also know is that it is never too late to put in the effort if someone is still there to talk to. There is nothing wrong with making a mistake and apologizing!!"
He says it vehemently, trying to ignore the shade of yellow outlining their SOUL. Alphys...he had never gotten the chance to express to her how sorry he was while she was here, and that hurt immensely. It almost overshadowed the fact that he'd been making amends back home already, before he came through the Ingress. Why, he'd even been doing some shopping for her--how could he ever trust her to eat anything but instant noodles and junk food?
That wasn't done out of a desire to throw their friendship away. It was...good. He had to be good, somewhere inside.
He had to believe that, because if he didn't, then why would Asriel want him as a friend now? Over and over, they'd had the discussion.
"If I gave up trying, I'd turn into a sad, pitiful monster with no regrets and all the regrets, hiding behind a wall of lights and sequins and telling myself I was doing everything right even if I knew that wasn't true." Oh, he remembers what he saw. He remembers how high his EXP climbed then, culling the miscreants who didn't submit to their king. Mettaton doesn't need Chara to guilt him there. "I don't want that for myself, so no matter what you say, I will continue doing what I do, and remembering all the mistakes--not to agonize! But to fix it!"