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Jesse Pinkman ([personal profile] heisenbitch) wrote in [community profile] thisavrou_log2016-11-28 02:21 am

closed

Who: Jesse Pinkman & Ronan Lynch; Jesse Pinkman & Joseph Kavinsky; Jesse Pinkman & Noah Czerny; Jesse Pinkman & Andyr Prince. (Will set up more starters if anyone wants one!)
When: Post-Moira crash into the Midway Hub
Where: Around the camp set up
What: #justpostwhatthefuckthings
Note: Warnings for swearing and other stuff I'll edit in if necessary. If anyone wants to do post-crash things with Jesse, shoot me a PM and I'll toss up a starter for you!


โ˜ฒ closed to ronan
[ One of the things Jesse managed to salvage of his own belongings from the Moira was the tent he'd received upon being promoted to Tiruncula rank a month or so ago. It's pitched shoddily among other crew members' tents pitched nearby, a slipshod effort on Jesse's part with how little he really knows about camping. Not that it matters, not that Jesse even cares. Hours have blurred on by since the ship went down, and Jesse has steadily descended from blind adrenalised terror into a state of shock-induced apathy; all the horrific things he's seen has anesthesised him into an eerily indifferent calmness.

Sitting crosslegged just outside his tent, there's a cigarette dangling between his lips, smoke drifting up from the lit end, while he's washing his hands in a dented camping saucepan of water that he'd managed to acquire. Barefoot and dressed in just his filthy jeans, his equally filthy blood-caked t-shirt is lying in a heap beside him. The water is cold, shocking against his skin; goosebumps rise across his arms and chest as he scrubs water up along his forearm, washing away dirt and dried blood as best he can with what little water he has available to him. He focuses on the task like he hasn't got a care in the world, like nothing horrific or traumatising has taken place.

Realising someone is approaching him, slowing down in front of him, Jesse glances up with a puff on his cigarette. It's Ronan. Smoke billows from around the cigarette pursed between his lips as Jesse peers up at Ronan with a look that's full of acknowledgement, yet unreactive; that same eerily indifferent calmness. Turning his attention back down to what he's doing, he remarks around his cigarette with a curt casualness that's entirely out of place with the whole situation: ]


'Sup?

โ˜ฒ closed to kavinsky
[ On the very outskirts of the makeshift camp set up by all the crew, away from the bustle of crew members and the grim reminders of everything that led up to the ship crashing, Jesse loiters in near darkness, smoking one of his last cigarettes. The only light thrown on him comes from the camp itself, dim and indistinct; the tip of his cigarette glows red and bright in the murky shadows with each drag.

That shock-induced apathy hasn't really lifted. As he stands on the edge of the camp, he watches the camp from this safe distance with an impassive casualness. Disconnected from it all, like a spectator to a situation that he's watching on a screen rather than a part of. That's not to say there isn't an endless hum of trembling anxiety trapped beneath the surface, waiting to tear through his bubble of indifference; that's not to say that his hands aren't constantly sweaty, or that his heart isn't constantly racing. But he seems disconnected even from that.

He stands slouched on the spot, hand shoved in his pocket, other hand bringing his cigarette up for a drag and then dropping away to his side with a flick of ash. It's like he's standing on a street corner and not on the edge of a camp that's stranded on a planet on the edge of the universe. However, a noise nearby has Jesse snapping his head towards it, eyes suddenly alert and sharp. He exhales a plume of smoke, shoulders tensing up while he peers into the darkness. Another noise, like a twig snapping under someone's shoe. ]


...Hey, who the fuck's there, yo?

โ˜ฒ closed to andyr
[ A few days have passed since the crash, in whatever way that "days" can be defined on this alien planet. Where Jesse, during the first couple of days, had been eerily apathetic in the face of so much trauma and terror, that shock has been slowly subsiding, giving way to a benumbed yet anxious helplessness rotting away inside of him. The only thing for it has been to keep busy, and god knows there's plenty to do. Not that Jesse is skilled in any of the areas needed most, but if Mr. White taught him anything outside of manufacturing meth and applying himself, it's taking inventory.

So, that's what he's been doing: throwing himself into the task when and where he's needed. Taking stock of the supplies salvaged by noting each item down on a clipboard, and moving said supplies to designated inventory areas. He's an exhausted wreck, having barely slept, barely eaten, but keeping busy keeps the churning storm of helpless panic all knotted up inside him contained.

It's when the stocktaking hits a lull in productivity, while those in charge work out how to inventory new supplies recovered from the Moira, that Jesse, bitten with a desperate nicotine craving, heads through the makeshift camp to find a secluded spot. He hovers near the edge of a cluster of tents, cigarette pursed between his lips and lighter igniting the tip, and it's when he draws in a deep, grateful hit of cigarette smoke that his eyes land on a familiar face. Andyr, sitting alone. A face Jesse hasn't been able to forget. Unspeakable horrors he hasn't been able to forget. Jesse hangs back, loitering in the dim shadows, wondering if he ought to approach the guy at all. And then, eventually, he hesitantly starts towards Andyr. ]


Hey, man.

[ An equally hesitant greeting as he comes to a stop at a respectful distance from Andyr. ]

โ˜ฒ closed to j
[ It's late, dark. Half the camp is asleep, or at least trying to sleep, in their cramped little tents and makeshift shelter fashioned out of salvageable materials from the Moira. Jesse isn't asleep, though. Sitting outside his tent, he's chewing on his fingernails anxiously in between taking drags of his cigarette, looking this way and that. Seeming to be looking out for someone. That someone being Daisy. He hasn't seen her and he doesn't know where she is, and he can't seem to contact her over the MID. He's worried. She knows where his tent is, though, having camped with him in it the first night of the crash. It's why he's sitting here waiting for her, looking out for her: maybe she'll show up.

As he takes another edgy drag of his almost-finished smoke, everything about him seeming restless and fidgety even though he's sitting still, he throws a glance the other way and spots J up ahead. Heading towards him, it would seem. ]
pillz: (sly)

cw rape joke

[personal profile] pillz 2016-11-27 06:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[there's a needle of a flashlight beam in the dark, sweeping the ground, a split-second before it's suddenly shining directly into jesse's face. bright enough to blind him. footsteps come closer, but it's just the one set, two feet printing steps one after another on dark, alien turf. and underneath the noise of long strides--

— laughter, inevitably. and by now, maybe the sound of kavinsky's laughter is even familiar, low and raspy and racking, an oily sound despite how dry it is. like it badly needs moisturizer. his face emerges out of the harsh light a moment later, when he drops the flashlight a few inches, throws jesse a wave. he looks better than he had the last time they spoke, once upon a puke, not far from a ship's crashing.]


You could stick to well-lit areas, [he says.] Or carry a rape whistle.
nightmarist: (standing โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-27 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ronan comes bearing gifts. With a blanket serving as a makeshift sack slung over one shoulder, he sinks down next to Jesse and immediately begins to unpack the thing: one beer bottle for Jesse and another for Ronan, a pack of cigarettes, a bag of Funyuns, and a replica of the shirt Jesse was wearing when he was cradling Ronan's dying body in his arms (sans nightmare oil stains). He doesn't say anything while he does this, but once it's all on display, he sits back and pops open his beer bottle.]

We need a shower around here, don't we.

[And what he means by that is, I need to make a shower around here, don't I. He's eyeing the remaining blood on Jesse's arms and the pinkish water he's bathing in. This camp is a shitty place for non-dreamers.]
deadthing: (hide me in a hollow sound)

slams this in here as requested

[personal profile] deadthing 2016-11-28 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
[It's a few days post-crash before Noah makes an appearance, somewhere on the outskirts of camp. He stands there looking around for a minute, apparently taking it all in, but if anyone notices and waves to him or calls out he doesn't respond. Then, quite suddenly, he cries out.

Just once. A cry of pain and surprise. His head jerks back, rocked by an invisible blow. The next one shuts him up. He stumbles as the unseen force keeps up its assault and eventually falls to the ground where he kicks and writhes and claws at the earth. The sounds he makes are... awful. Not screaming anymore, but wheezing. Whimpering. It hurts so much. His movements slow and become weaker. Eventually they stop altogether.]
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[personal profile] deconstruct 2016-11-28 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ ah. awkward.

it's not every day someone watches you scream and crying and seizing in agony, unless you're Andyr Prince, and you're currently in House Hapsburg, and those people watching at typically doctors and lab techs. but they weren't in Hapsburg, and Jesse is far from any kind of doctor, and yet, he'd done far more to ease Andyr's pain that absolutely anyone in those labs have every so much as attempted. Sans Posie and Alva, he supposes, but one of those was strapped to another table and the other was typically miles away in Gloriana any time an operation was happening, only left to stitch together the aftermath.

it's been a long time since andyr's felt some kind of self-conscious about that, or felt awkward in the presence of anyone like that, knowing they're all typically aware of what happens and why, but coming to the Moira has changed everything in what Andyr understands about the world around him and how to interact with its people. For a long, quiet moment, he says nothing, just starts at the man. Eventually, he grunts out a word. ]


Hey.

[ eloquent, and he goes back to studying him. while it'd all been a blur of torturous hallucinations, clouded confusion, and desperate panic, he remembers the medbay, and jesse dragging him there. how he's hung around and done all he could to help, once alva took over the medical care. andyr thinks he remembers holding onto his hand at some point, and murmured conversation with hitched tempos, andyr concentration on keeping his voice steady as he'd listened to jesse ramble. a lot more than anyone had attempted to give him, really. ]

Sorry for the nightmare fuel. And slapping you. [ at least, he thinks he slapped him at some point. he might have just been feeling the urge to. the mind's never that reliable when you go fucking around with nervous systems. ]
nightmarist: (imperious โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-28 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Not me.

[Which should probably settle Jesse's doubts about that. Ronan's staring back at Jesse in his intense, unbroken way. If he's fragile in any sense, it's totally obscured in this moment.]

Not you, either. You also won't starve. Or run out of smokes. I thought you should know, in case you were pissing yourself over it.
nightmarist: (caustic โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 10:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Ronan lifts his shoulders in a nonchalant shrug.]

I don't care about them and they'd put me in a cage if they knew my secret. If you don't want any more shit, then I won't bother you, but don't expect me to be giving it to anyone else. I'd prefer to live my life without some desperate mob trying to harvest my brain.
nightmarist: (perceptive โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
[Ronan watches Jesse in return, dispassionate.]

I don't want anything from you.
nightmarist: (astute โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 11:33 am (UTC)(link)
[Satisfied, Ronan relaxes his posture a bit and takes a swig of his own beer. He figures neither of them wants to talk about what happened, and reassurance is - as usual - beyond his ability. Taking care of Jesse's basic needs is really the least he could do.

And to that end, there's one more thing: He reaches into the pocket of his jacket and draws out an 8 ball of pure cocaine. He offers this more discreetly, cupped in the palm of his hand for only Jesse to see.]


You look sick.
nightmarist: (calculating โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 12:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Sure.

[Cocaine isn't Ronan's drug of choice the way it is for Kavinsky, but he knows it sucks to get fucked-up by yourself. And anyway, it might even him out a little from the dragging grogginess of the alcohol and pills he's already ingested.]
nightmarist: (savvy โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 02:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ronan doesn't need to be told. As soon as Jesse climbs to his feet, he recollects the stash and follows suit with the sack slung over his shoulder. He, too, is quietly pleased. He's gotten quite tired of being treated like a helpless child.]
nightmarist: (sharp โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 02:40 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

[Actually.]

I stole it from K.
nightmarist: (nonchalant โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ronan smiles in a hazy sort of way. He likes that description of Kavinsky.]

Yeah, that guy.
nightmarist: (snaky โ˜˜)

[personal profile] nightmarist 2016-11-29 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ronan gestures with a playfully exaggerated flourish in Jesse's direction.]

Ladies first.

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